Chapter 569 (Should we restart again? XD)

I wonder am is this blog still alive or RIP... Hmmmm
Well, let said it still alive?~

Soooo after a longgg , century years? Or time? I found out that perhaps the feeling is like a process...

Apparently, something kinda bad happens on me...
(To the future me who is reading this, trust me, it wasn't that bad and you probably won't feel like a bad thing anyway)
Let just assume is love problems... Well, why I said it wasn't that bad. Highly reason is that I keep telling myself that "self-love" is the most important essence in our life ... 

Disclaimer:-
This wasn't a big case to talk about but the reflection of this accident actually is a good thing for me to type it out and also enhance my "love consultant" being a professional to seek out my friends and love one <---Which don't have any license for it ya ~.

So make it short, I got heartbroken, literally yes... Is been a long time I have this kind of feeling toward a guy...
The last time I had heartbroken was in the year 2014? Well, that time I will said timing is not right or probably I know he just treat me like a little sister.
So let forget it and I am still kinda happy that my friend and he are so fucking sweet together.... Awwww....

Then what is the point I am writing this??
Well, perhaps in future if I or my friends which I hope don't encounter this kind of "heartbroken" or any situation...
Really, always remember to love yourself...
I remember my technique when handling this case is usually..

"Ok, I let you cry, let you rant, let you do any crazy stuff as long....remember as long...Not self-hurt, no hurting yourself, no illegal stuff"

PS: I am a good citizen anyway~~

Next, after all this madness, sit down and think properly:-

1. You can regret for the past.

OR

2. Appreciate for the past..

Well, of course, when it started, hardly will have people can appreciate the past, including me. I was cursing, angry, hating myself and so much more but after crying out loud, ranting to people who I super close to...

I don't want people to say bad about the guy I like nor pity for me.
So in order for that thing not happen, I choose to appreciate the past, the moment, the times whereby he really likes me, treat me like a princess, adore me like I am his only one.

(Ya, I  am trying to ermm write more story , a probably short story so I can remember? I really hate my goldfish memory sometimes ==)

Then I remember I said this thing before, nothing last forever, his love for me had ended, I can't complain nor I can grunt over everything, instead of seeing him saying sorry to me and pity over me... I choose to act like as if we are a stranger or better word, acquaintance...

(Let play the music "Someone That I Used To Know")

Anyway, I do wish him all the best and filled with happiness.... QAQ Afterall, he is my friend, I don't like to make an enemy and I am rather kind of happy to see people filled with happiness... 

With him, is one of my sweetest memory probably in year 2018... Well, I can't say in my life because I will be encounter more and more happiness in future. Always be in positive mode!!

Like my every year wishlist or what you call as motivation/target/life quotes or my vision.

More Memory, Less Regret

Last but not least, how to know are you really letting go? Or really stay in the past? I really don't know. Everyone has their way to put a conclusion.

However, if you ask me.

I will only said, "the moment you are no longer angry or really doesn't really matter for what he do, perhaps that is the time you really letting go."

I am not sure for now, did I really letting go because I still want to wish him all the best, hoping him doing good with what his is doing right now and perhaps we can be friend back, perhaps one day?? ..LOL

(I never give up with the concept "friend" ya) 

Oh well, I actually want to wrote some happy stuff but I feel like this chapter is more or less...Hmm, is like a omgggg..I KNOW

one of the page in my LOVE LOVE THEORY!! ^^

Till Then..

Hopefully I can try update a bit more??? *WINK!!!

Type at 12.09.2018 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 566 (Lovely Selfie+Continue UK POST!)

Gambling a happiness of chips,

In the street of full of peoples think about him,

How is him right now?

However I can't give you the answer you want.

But you must filled with happiness ah.

【美聲】【雲雀】你一定要幸福——許久不見的你,還好嗎？【PV付】

Nice selfie right, I also think is nice, Haha...Look so docile good student... The real fact is so horrible anyway...*dig nose*

14.06.2016

6am 
Malaysia time is 1pm.. I think my sleeping time routine is suit in UK...Information, now more worst...LOL I totally sleep at UK Time...*3*

8:23am My mom scold me cause why I wore short pant..Err mommy, I only got one long pant.

Have to wear legging de..

Apparently. I don't have any long pant before I go UK so I throw all short pant and really mom nag me like hell..T_T

Don't care is at where but ice-cream is a must to eat! *nom nom*

9:37am Time to go out and play. Really love the weather in here. Chill and cold. Ok I spot a horse!! *meeps!* Btw, I forgot to mention own thing that is their bus inside don't have aircond.You know I used to said I like BRT because aircond. I need cold air but in UK bus, I think even don't have aircond is still kind of windy, of cause out of the bus, is cold!!!!!!!!! *freeze*!!!

10:24am Sitting on top of this bus.(is this what you call double-decker?) Not deny I don't like man to super near close to me, not your problem, is mine. Wish you can walk out from this bus...I just don't like...I am....*slap myself*!

All happily eating ice-cream..:D

11:00am Stumble a shop and seriously saying I have no idea what to buy for friends, all the item look so expensive for me..T3T If there a way I can delivery food back, I confirm will. Just noticed out that I actually willing to spend money on food and make up or beauty product. Even in Malaysia, food, make up product or beauty product... *wink wink*

12:20pm I spend 100 pound..Don't ask me what I spend..I want to cry...T3T Ok I spend another 100 pound..Stress..Kill me please.. Please visit my funeral because I spent 50 pound again! Wth usually I can spend 100 pound for like a month plus in Malaysia. OmO ..T3T

1:36pm I just noticed that their staircase is very scary, I am scare..T3T Luckily that I no longer afraid of staircase hehe..*I used to have phobia of staircase*

2:25pm Ermm time for resting hehe..

4:00pm Is super windy here, my wifi seem to have problem again..Sad Die Me!

4:20pm Err, I lost my lips balm, want cry already..If I not mistaken the lips balm I just bought and is lost, like wth? Damn~!!

5:30pm Time to go eat and today eat with Mommy's ex-boss. One more sentences I don't want to spend money in here again, or not I will cry...

5:50pm I think I am a worst kid ever, I am not denying that I got a bit of jealous..*geez*! Oh gosh, I guess I am a very possessive seme.(￣^￣)ゞ <--- feeling="" font="" gosh="" hell="" i="" increased="" jealousy="" kill="" level="" like="" man="" me="" my="" need="" now.="" oh="" out="" someone="" spam..i="" t_t="" throw="" to="" wifi="">

6:45pm I actually planned to tell out what I feels tonight but sighed..Something is better kept inside my heart.(INFJ problem)

Me and the cutie pie little brother...Hehe!

7:25pm Now sitting this long type of bus to go back home. Feel guilty making little bro emo..*dig nose* but he is damn darn cute haha! Kai Ting is damn adorable..I am still saying kid that age around 4++ always attracted me haha!!

9:30pm Back to home..Mommy making the bread toast again..Very yummy although unhealthy but what to do, is food and yummy and they said unhealthy food sometimes very yummy!! Muahahah!

10:35pm Resting at home while is time for MengMo fanfic!! *love* Need to read all the fanfic that get tagged *love love love*Funeral forget about it..only spend on food..Cheap food..

(Please there is nothing cheap in here!..Sandwich 2pound feel so cheap until convert system pop out...Is 12buck.)

PS:Now think back is actually quite ok with the price, the food there is so yummy, even slightly expensive also feel hrmmm, not that pricey...HEHE!

Now time for rolling on bed, hugging elephant.

Btw, Malaysia time should be 5:40am.

Ok till then!! HOHO!

Write at 03-11-2016 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 565 (Old post plus random)

Fall in love with you is an accident

Hoping this accident can stay forever..

Let continue my post from UK!

13.06.2016

Now is 8:28am, going to my second flight then will finally see mama. All the feeling is so mix up right now. T3T
Sitting this bus that will take me to my flight and my first feeling is "same as BRT"
8:38am(Amsterdam Time)

The second plane due to small one so there is no TV for me, end up sleeping. Thought should be playing Ipad but end up still sleep..LOL

9.07am
Got snack to eat then continue sleep..Btw,those stewardess is so pretty hehe!!
The bread is very yummy and so does the biscuit..*happy stomach filled with food*

ALL IS SO YUMMY AH!! T3T I suddenly miss this snack..*sob sob*


9:33am
Reaching soon maybe in 10 more min. Ok so time going to change to UK which is 8:33am now. Malaysia time is 3:33am.

Now in UK

9:40am
Finally can see mommy..TT...something feel so unreal and unrealistic..Can time stop now?? But I want my daddy beside me..*suddenly feel myself is a selfish kid*

9:44am
Omg, the house is so nice!I really love the house in UK, something old yet comfy... >///<
Ok I am like a kampung kid looking around..*dig nose*
They said 50 pound is cheap to drive and back from house to airport to house too.
I was like 50 pound...Errr 300++ le, where is the cheap?@.@

Mommy room, small but comfy..:)

10:11am
Reached to mommy house.
I am so emo right now.
Btw I actually like UK building. *hrmmm*

Inside...>///<

11:50am
I am tired and sleepy..Doze awhile first..*Listening to Shamo's cover song*

Me and Mommy *love*

Me and Leng Ma...*love*

12:55pm
I end up din't sleep lol!
Now going out and explore..Hoho
Cause is my fist time sit double decker hence I I sister to sit at the top..XD!

1:13pm
No double decker, stress so is ok..~
Mommy said under family package will be 8pound++ all day..(mommy and aunty said cheap..) Errr 46++ le..*convert mood turn on*

1:32pm
When parking weekday is more than weekend..Like seriously?!
Come all way here eat Burger King. I am pro lol~!
First food cost 6.39 pound..I want cry..Give me a room now.
O.O the penny size is so cute and different..

The coins

3:00pm
I think I am going to spend 25 pound for a pair of shoes..I want to cry..=~=..150 buck..*heart break to pieces*..Someone borrow me a knife to stab myself.

4:25pm
I just notice one thing, my mom here drink Evian(the expensive mineral water)..omg Malaysia here so expensive..*Mom, salute!*
Oh ya, there this guy that came from China and damn he is aged of 30 but look young.
No wonder my Shamo , Xiao Meng and Xiao Cai also look like teenager.(noted: they just 20++ ok!)



5:00pm
Went to visit my mom's preview boss and awww...Those kids is so adorable cute and also adorable monster.(Those nails is done by those kids if you wondering)
Today I feel myself spend 80 pound?! =~= *ok I really need people to give me a knife and stab myself*

Say hiiiiiiii to those adorable kids *kyaaa*

7:48pm
Malaysia time should be around 2:26am.. Ermm I don't really have any jet lag moment but can't deny I got a bit tired. TT
Mommy told me the wifi is down when it rain.TT
I saw some of MengMo/MoMeng tagged me in their fanfic. The urge of reading is here.XD
Mommy making pasta today and why I can type so much cause I am lying on the sofa while hugging elephant.

8:54pm
Mommy forbid me to go out and in anymore because ermm I already took bath and my eyes is getting red..😭😭😭
Mommy tell me to sleep first but then she said eat mee, ya no pasta de. Eat mee then sleep.
Hrmm. I think that all for today.

Ok end of today and again crapping level increase lol!

Alright tata, PS: I selfie a lot during UK trip, no joke...HAHA

Chapter 56(heart) (Spam old post??)

One of my selfie during UK Trip...

(I been repeat time and time but yes, my face is damn flawless during UK Trip, 360 camera settle everything, no need extra edit)

So I decided to spam my UK trip in here since already type in my phone so will slightly modified...Hoho~

12.06.2016, went inside the flight. 

Inside Flight

Is my first time on flight for going to such a far away place.(The feeling of scare+excited and so many thing is mixed up)

Sincerely saying, I really got a bit scare due is long trip and I rarely go out....I am such an ancient human being~~

My sis and my dad send to the airport...Hehe!! Together with my Kai Ma (Ah Peng) and one more aunty...My sis bless me to have fun which I also bless myself to have fun too..LOL!

Back inside the flight.

I not sure is it I deleted other picture but this is the only picture I can find in my phone LOL!

The night view is so beautiful, I don't know how to describe it but is like an art.

By the way, I watched Zootopia because they don't have BL movie. *They should just insert Youtube, then I can watch MIR*

So after that is the following next day, I keep on playing with country time because I am damn bored. Not to mention that I sat alone during inside the flight, so ermm hrmmm, I am totally alone but since I don't want with my Kai Ma or with aunty, if they touch certain topic that I don't like, not good ah~

(13.06.2016)

Malaysia time:1:36am

Thanks to the noisy airplane sound , I end up close Zootopia and listen to some Chinese song but seriously they don't have any song that I listened.(ok, some Jay Chou, Wang Lee Hom etc etc also ok cause I know they confirm don't have those music I always listen...My taste of listening music change...Booo)!

Around 1:50am Ok, I finally found some music I always listen..XD!!!

Now is 2:13am They close the light while I am listening to Della Ding song..Hoho

AwA, I actually want wifi right now, want to check on my wattpad, my Weibo, spam Twitter and Insta.

Bloody Angel watching MIR.(is ok, I only watch when Eng sub is available) listen song and tried to sleep and I saw the guy beside me got orange juice, Hrmm I wait they open light and I am going to ask for orange juice too..*I also want eat ahhh*!

3:09am I tired to sleep, cannot, listen music sleep=cannot. No music then sleep=cannot..Errr...Don't tell me I need wait around 5am++ only can sleep?! My sleeping time is totally become worse. Someone want save me? T3T

I guess my life is really a must to have wifi..

5:00am Woke up from my sleep. Guess I just sleep like one hour? Ok stomach not feeling good..why I am a unhealthy kid?!<----i complain="" feeling="" i="" sick..="3=</font" whenever="">

7.20am Woke up again and one thing I can said I cannot difference my stomach pain or gastric pain. All I know is sleep and tried to ignore my pain.

8:50am I check out outside the window, the light amused me again and yes I have constipation..Moody moody. Now cannot sleep so watch movie..re-watch Zootopia because Zootopia is love LOL!

10:32am Got Big Hero 6 movie and I haven't watch yet and so many movie I also haven't watch yet....Movie time!

Did people told me that Hero is such a cool ass human!!! I need him as my boyfriend!!k I need Tadashi as my boyfriend..I need a gentleman.. Ok I want baymax as my boyfriend..(How many human I want it to be my boyfriend???HRMMM!!)

I took back my word, Tadashi win my heart..What the!! Handsome! Gentleman! Win!

10:50am Is time for breakfast!! First time breakfast in plane, got a bit nervous and excited and breakfast is love..Breakfast+Big Hero is Love!

My breakfast...Hue Hue..(I found back some old picture)

Ok why Tadashi die?! Ok why my Tadashi die?! Please explain to me.. 11:09am Ok satisfied breakfast but seem like my stomach have that pain again..Sigh, when I will reach to my next transit.?? =3=

11:29am Another 45 min I am reaching the the next place which yay! Finally can steal free wifi, contact papa and mama~~!!

11:48am Some announcement state that I am going to arrived to this Amsterdam soon...Err let me watch finish Big Hero first..

11:56am Why you steal Tadashi away and then steal Baymax...I want cry now..*praying I can watch finish before I reach to a new place that is 6 hour behind from Malaysia... Yay Baymax never leave I want Kobe and Bobby now..They are my personal companies.

12:04pm (13.06.2016)

Malaysia time.

(My 12 hour of sitting this plane finally over..Butt pain

6:04am(13.06.2016)

Amsterdam Time( this place is so green..)(that is what I saw above)

12:19pm I thought I might use my data but no service..Errr..Free wifi, where are you?

~~~

All for now...

My favorites pic for my first flight, AwA!

Yes by judging this picture, I sit at the corner that nearby window hoho~~ Love ya~

Write at 19.10.2016 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 562 ( A visit to a place)

Hi human..

My name is Phoebe..

A girl who studying ACCA ( dying in ACCA) 

A weirdo girl that rarely admit she is human..

OK..

Back to serious topic..Opps~~!!

So today I go to Shah Alam myself which is very rare, although I no longer "P" but still I don't have that habits to drive far away places unless is the condition forces me or most of the times, I got friend accompany me to go to those places but today is just me alone, with my phone and bag to go to Shah Alam just to visit one of my darling.. 

DARLING SEE HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU!! SO LOVE ME MORE OK?OK?OK?

Here my beloved darling..

She tall pretty awesome cute girl but not when she mad..SHE LOOK SO SCARY, I almost want cry my heart out..

I told her I scare of scary human..T...T

But she got a very high tolerance, she can tolerate me a lot.. TRUST ME, seldom human can tolerate me.. I feel whoever can stand my behavior is either they are too angel or they don't know how to differentiate a real demon.. *Opps*~~

See my pretty darling, she not really good at selfie pose so her face all same LOL!! 

But she still look so sweet and angelic.. Awww!!

She show me around her campus, take me go eat and we chatted a lot of stuff..

It was really nice to get to see her, at least one of my event list is cancel off.. <3 font="">

Darling, one day I should make you addicted to selfie..I WILL U WAIT ME OK?  She confirm going to ignore me :(!! 

She always hurt my poor heart yet she still showering lot of love to me.. 

I will remember our first real meet up, you were behind me, message me "turn behind"..

That moment, I will always remember even one day we became stranger..Ok?? :')

OK, head back to my reality cruel world..I am dead die doom..GG..~~

Write at 04.10.2015 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 557 ( BOOKFEST 2015)

Thank my dear Ching Hui and Wen Tyng who accompany me to Bookfest..

Cause I keep on want to buy stationary but end up don't know buying what kind of stuff..*STARE*!

Well, since we all went kinda late so is expected go home also late..*pouts*!!

Let start the story~~

So Phoebe went to Tyng's house around 2pm while Tyng's sis and her friend is busy doing they make up for cosplay so Phoebe keep on annoyed Tyng until Hui come to her house and all of them were waiting for Charlie ( Tyng's boyfriend, my boss) to come and fetch them but unfortunately he seem stuck in traffic jam so around 2:30pm, Phoebe thebn decide fetch them all go to the nearby LRT Station..PS: Thank that Phoebe drive to Tyng's house..

Around 4pm only reach to KLCC and well, they dump Tyng's sis and her friend cause they main topic is cosplay while three of them is for shopping..*smirk smile*..The only thing Phoebe's regret is bringing her camera but din't use..*bang wall*!!

So start their journey inside the stationary hall..

Is a good thing that they focus on stationary hall instead of book hall..*yawn*!! 

Three of them having this struggle of buying things..Actually is two of them..*PHOEBE AND HUI*..=......=

But luckily when they buy, the thought of "is it a must" is there so eventually feel worth it..

Phoebe spend around Rm150++ just to buy don't know what things.. ORZ~~:(

So three of them having this short rest and then Tyng offered them sushi she made!! HOW SWEET CAN TYNG BE!! *doki doki*

See Tyng being such an angel.. Why Phoebe always surrounded by so many sweet friends.. Hoho!!

So after having this pre-dinner, they all decided to wait Charlie come over and then only back together..Phoebe then tell Tyng that she drag Hui to Kinokuniya to get something that she want cause Hui wanted to go there at the first place..

Went into the shop and found this book, Phoebe really hope she can buy but everything in chinese..=(

Nooo..SO SAD! EMO

Hopefully in future, she will get both book of herself so she can learn more sewing skills..Tee Hee

TOTORO!! Phoebe's favorites..So creepy smile yet so cute..OMG!! The combination is so perfect..

Show one of the last picture to sum all yesterday event..

Memory Bread.. 

Basically to accompany me when Phoebe have stress study..HAHA!!

Story end here..Tata~

If I can make you happy everyday, I will do it cause your happiness is my priority..

#plovec

btw, the ballon belong to my dear Hui~~ Love her max..

PS: I look like a hamster..Oh no~!

Write at 20.07.2015 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 549 ( Sometimes I also don't understand why?)

Oh Hi..

Love sometimes is like a drug, once dose, is so hard to get rid of it...*WvW*

So I only put online for two people in my Facebook..That is Ching Hui and Joyuex.. 

I forgot why I put them only online but err oh well..Doesn't care much..

Ok..Study stuff been stressing me like shit..Now using Mun Ying's way to study again..LOL

Hope it work for me..At least let pray it work for me..I really got the thought to examine my poor little brain...Can stuff long memory but can't stuff short memory..T3T

Nooooooooooo my dear boyfriend is my Mr Account..Mr Account, love me please and remember our lovely dovey day??*wink wink*...

Oh ya..Did I mention that my sadist behavior actually getting worst and worst or because someone is so masochist so eventually I show my sadist behavior toward to her..

But usually I will act like a wolf in sheep..Hahaaa~~ So eventually I act innocent and emo (sometimes I really having my bad mood) then she will trying to heal my poor kokoro and I will become evil seme back..Muahahaa..

Let me give a nice scenario:-

JO:You know you are annoying! *pissed off after I keep on rawss her*

Me:...:( Sorry..

JO:*showing victory face*

Me:I am sorry I been annoying you a lot..Bye..:(

JO:Whatt!!I am just kidding man!! I actually ok with your annoying..I like..Hehee

ME:I know arr..Is just fun showing my moody mood to you and get back my fun..

JO:...

Ok..I know I sound so weird..I know I really know..*pouts* 

I not sure what I want to post but today will be I admit I am selective social type of person and I only will post few only that I really can related..Ohohooo~

1. I dislike the idea of mixing friends..I mean I ok with it but I still got the selfish behavior that is my important label people must with me..
2. If I were to go out hang out alone, I always pray I won't met someone..Even if I were to met, I will always said "I hang out few hour only"..Cause sometimes I like to spend time doing my own stuff..This is true and fact..~!
3. I don't switch off the phone but I mute conversation if I feel a bit too much..Hahaa...And I feel no one want to chat with me so is ok la..
4. I like to hide myself in my room doing my own thing cause I always feel that is my most quality moment..I no need to chat with people nor doing anything that make me feel stress.
5. I either alone or really love to spend with people I love to spend..*frank speaking*

Anything conclusion just I am weird and err weird??@@ I need to take my proper rest and err do my own stuff..LOL!!

Write at 04.04.2015 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 540 ( People call fangirling, I call it stalker!!)

People call is fangirling but I feel more like stalker..

Ernest, Dan Khoo, Wai Kit and Shaun.. Omg..Selfie with all people making my heart badum badum..*weee*~!!

I always have this bad behavior that is  "I will crazy or over excited over a thing/stuff/human for a month"..Is like I totally having 101% interested on them..Is always happen that why I used to said I got this "3 minute of moment"..

Well last time was happen on stuff I do..I used to have this 3 month crazy-ing drawing and drawing..

Then another 2 month was doing this handy crafting.. 

Another 2 month was crazy with oldies song..

Now my habits turn to human haha..*bang wall*

Ok so ya I really get too excited when I can see those youtuber and comic people..Especially Dan Khoo and Ernest..I always see their dorky funny and stupid video and make me go happy..Tee Hee~!!

Even my brother can't stand my behavior of it..LOL..

What make me more go hyper is seem like every week I can get to see Ernest..Kyaa...

Ernest in video is dorky, funny and idiot..Yes IDIOT CUTE~~ :3 

But seriously maybe cause we both is stranger so I can feel he kinda shy, kind and gentleman and you know those opposite of idiot..I guess....*wink wink*~~ 

Second week of January..Omg..He cute right??I know I know..*wink wink*

Third week of January..Was kinda happy when he can recognize me and most funny thing is I was wearing a not so malaysian style of fashion going out cause rushing..Hehe..XD!!^^~

Fourth week of January(Also the last week)..Got so many selfie with him...Thank you Ernest for taking selfie picture with me..YAY!! *bow*

Beside him I also adore Dan Khoo alot..Well I actually like Dan Khoo last two year when I saw his funny video..LOL

Dan Khoo, Me and Wai Kit..

Dan Khoo in real life also very shy but have to understand, I am a stranger/fan to them..So ya..Hehe..

Dan Khoo really got the gentleman feeling..*drools*!!*fangirling mode turn on immediately*!! 

Wai Kit another side super dorky but shy..^^!! 

Well, the last week of weekend managed to rush to KLCC to see them again plus THEMINGTHING is here so why not take chances..*wink wink*..Either is Ming Yue or Ming Han...They both just super cool and good looking!!

Ming Yue..Omg..He so cute and funny..With his funny pose(Inside camera pic)..Tee Hee!!

Ming Han..Another gentleman.. *wink wink*!! You can't blame those girls go for them..LOL

Btw, that the moment I feel Dan Khoo even more gentleman..LOL!! Only I know what really happening..Tee Hee~~ (Happen In KLCC)

Ok..I need to ermm rest and study..I been slacking and lazy..OMG..I really old de meh!:(

Write at 2.02.2015 by -VoN S@N-