Chapter 569 (Should we restart again? XD)

I wonder am is this blog still alive or RIP... Hmmmm
Well, let said it still alive?~

Soooo after a longgg , century years? Or time? I found out that perhaps the feeling is like a process...

Apparently, something kinda bad happens on me...
(To the future me who is reading this, trust me, it wasn't that bad and you probably won't feel like a bad thing anyway)
Let just assume is love problems... Well, why I said it wasn't that bad. Highly reason is that I keep telling myself that "self-love" is the most important essence in our life ... 

Disclaimer:-
This wasn't a big case to talk about but the reflection of this accident actually is a good thing for me to type it out and also enhance my "love consultant" being a professional to seek out my friends and love one <---Which don't have any license for it ya ~.

So make it short, I got heartbroken, literally yes... Is been a long time I have this kind of feeling toward a guy...
The last time I had heartbroken was in the year 2014? Well, that time I will said timing is not right or probably I know he just treat me like a little sister.
So let forget it and I am still kinda happy that my friend and he are so fucking sweet together.... Awwww....

Then what is the point I am writing this??
Well, perhaps in future if I or my friends which I hope don't encounter this kind of "heartbroken" or any situation...
Really, always remember to love yourself...
I remember my technique when handling this case is usually..

"Ok, I let you cry, let you rant, let you do any crazy stuff as long....remember as long...Not self-hurt, no hurting yourself, no illegal stuff"

PS: I am a good citizen anyway~~

Next, after all this madness, sit down and think properly:-

1. You can regret for the past.

OR

2. Appreciate for the past..

Well, of course, when it started, hardly will have people can appreciate the past, including me. I was cursing, angry, hating myself and so much more but after crying out loud, ranting to people who I super close to...

I don't want people to say bad about the guy I like nor pity for me.
So in order for that thing not happen, I choose to appreciate the past, the moment, the times whereby he really likes me, treat me like a princess, adore me like I am his only one.

(Ya, I  am trying to ermm write more story , a probably short story so I can remember? I really hate my goldfish memory sometimes ==)

Then I remember I said this thing before, nothing last forever, his love for me had ended, I can't complain nor I can grunt over everything, instead of seeing him saying sorry to me and pity over me... I choose to act like as if we are a stranger or better word, acquaintance...

(Let play the music "Someone That I Used To Know")

Anyway, I do wish him all the best and filled with happiness.... QAQ Afterall, he is my friend, I don't like to make an enemy and I am rather kind of happy to see people filled with happiness... 

With him, is one of my sweetest memory probably in year 2018... Well, I can't say in my life because I will be encounter more and more happiness in future. Always be in positive mode!!

Like my every year wishlist or what you call as motivation/target/life quotes or my vision.

More Memory, Less Regret

Last but not least, how to know are you really letting go? Or really stay in the past? I really don't know. Everyone has their way to put a conclusion.

However, if you ask me.

I will only said, "the moment you are no longer angry or really doesn't really matter for what he do, perhaps that is the time you really letting go."

I am not sure for now, did I really letting go because I still want to wish him all the best, hoping him doing good with what his is doing right now and perhaps we can be friend back, perhaps one day?? ..LOL

(I never give up with the concept "friend" ya) 

Oh well, I actually want to wrote some happy stuff but I feel like this chapter is more or less...Hmm, is like a omgggg..I KNOW

one of the page in my LOVE LOVE THEORY!! ^^

Till Then..

Hopefully I can try update a bit more??? *WINK!!!

Type at 12.09.2018 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 561 (Love toward my stuff?)

Maybe I found another world that I really felt comfortable about it, so I don't mind being so introvert and alone most of the times.

PS:Vampire teeth don't like me..I look so weird but in same time , I love it~

Today posted what?? Hrmmm..

Just focus on few stuff I love or I should make it my priority for now.

• ACCA.

ACCA is my priority..I don't want fail it nor I want to put it as my regret black dot in my life. Selfish enough to think like that?? No, cause there sometimes I really need to put all these more important than other.

I know people will said "You cannot think like that..Then like this, ditch all your friends and your friend will dislike you".

I am SERIOUSLY SAYING HERE..I AM NOT JUDGING ANYONE but I AM SERIOUSLY STATED:-

If you were my friend, you should understand what is important to me for now in the year and coming few year.

If you were my friend, please understand if I say "don't want to go out" is because I usually around the corner of my critic exam month..

If you were my friend, be patience with me, I know I already age of 20 but so what?? I still under my parent's shelter..What I have now is given by them. So please understand. 

Like I mentioned, I really not saying anyone but seriously sometimes, I really hope I can do my own stuff, had my own plan going on..

• My Family

My family, like I mentioned is super important than outsider..Ok deal with it, I love my family > outsider..

• My freaking few important group of friends

To my friends that I really appreciated, please please don't make me get stressed when I can't hang out with you all and when I having my critic exam month.

I really love you all and I said if I can, I will want to hang out too but wait when I sembreak..I will automatically come and find you all and be super annoying as well..

• Cosplay, Fujoshi, Nerd, Introvert Life

Like I stated I got my own world, I don't really like to go out and socialize with other human. I love to spend time on stuff I love to do alone. Maybe is my sickness, maybe is my phobia but sorry I am a selfish weirdo, I do care what people think of me but that only last for few day, or maybe one day then come back again to me.

You know, this call self hurt..I do "self hurt" for myself and only I can do for myself..Lalalaa~~

Till now then, the thought of posted what I really want is here..Just want to spam my dear blog, sorry for dumping you..Love you the most..~~

Write at 24.09.2015 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 558 (Complicated Feeling)

No picture because I am using Uni's Library and post..*pouts*

I feel myself so weird, I know I am not longer belong to you or wait..I and you doesn't have any contract agreement..

I just don't know how to be normal anymore toward to you..

Maybe the climax point is already there and then slowly slide down until I don't feel like putting you beside me..Let everything back to normal..

Sometimes when you "love" a person, maybe temporary letting go is one of the best choices..

Don't hold too tight, cause holding too tight will eventually make us more worst..

Don't hold too tight, cause holding too tight will make you hate me one day..

Don't hold too tight, cause holding too tight will make lost everything..

Well, I actually kinda happy that I don't feel anything weird inside my mind or my heart..
Maybe I really turn coldblooded de..So I eventually can't feel any feeling for anyone..*love feeling no more de* LOL!!

But my "hua zhi" toward to human , actor , actress , idols , my 2D character is still exist..Hahaa!!

Basically just want to say let everything be normal bah..I don't want to stress myself with the word "relationship"..

The curse inside me is getting more and more worst..

Taa-Daa..Should go home now or maybe simple shopping then go home??Hrmmm~~

PS:My mom tomorrow birthday..Can't wait to wish her soon.. My love..

Write at 21.07.2015 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 556 ( C.U.R.S.E)

Behind a simple smile, is just a complicated weirdo who thinking a lot of stuff every minute..

So this year raya holiday, I din't really done any productive stuff which I plan to do..*bang wall*

Mostly today need to do , if not I won't have any time to do it..

Sem 2 getting more and more busy as well more challenging plus with my this brain who don't even like to memorize also have to force myself to do it..*DIE DIE ALSO NOT GIVING UP*

Next thing, please please everything can be peaceful and harmony..

I don't want to lose anything nor anyone..I am tired of it..

I am tired of how people think I am just a girl who taking advantage of it..

I am tired of how people think I only want to close to people who give me benefits only..

I am strictly saying don't treat me too good, cause I can't or never will give you my 100% of attention..

I only can say I am a selfish girl who like to do things that make me happy..I don't show my attention through action nor through word but eventually I will show it..Not now, not later but maybe in future..

Well, if like that I rather don't take any benefits from you all..I am tired..I can't stand of it..I can't hold all these tension..

The word "love" is too strong..Is strong until I am scare of it..

If like that, why not treat me like normal person..No need give me too much..I got too much already..I don't know how to repay all these "love"..I don't even want to face all the moody/anger/jealousy behavior..

It only make me avoid or just ignore..

I admit I want attention but not until that level..Serious..No joke..Maybe is my curse..

I just can't have a happiness for a long period, there always have a challenges waiting for me..Obstacle trying to pull me down and such on..

I just want to release all the moody-ness in here..

Nothing much..

I am not implying anyone..

Just treat these day I have lot and lot of weird and nightmare dream...*bang wall*

This is me..A coldblooded human that have this small "sun" inside her..

Tata..~~ 

Need sleep..~~ *yawn*

Write at 18-07-2015 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 555 (Quick summary I guess)

Holiday going to end soon, my hell life going to start soon..

Better make less regret and more important moment in my next semester..Jia Yu!! JIA YU!! 

So there like two more day then my holiday is gonna over..OH NO! :( This is not a good sign but I haven't really clean my mom's room which become my workshop room..O..O!! I AM SO DEAD!

Anyhow this month holiday, I fulfilled myself with lot of anime and also drama and also this CHINA/MAINLAND ENTERTAINMENT SHOW that is Happy Camp..

Maybe not as funny as Running Man(I am not into Running Man but once a blue blue moon, I got watch) but I like..LOL~~ Now watching back the old episode hoho!!

I will continue watch every week even I start my semester..*YAY*

So due of these mainland drama, I started to think of WEIBO..Well is Miyan who tell me about Weibo and I was like I want to play also although I am banana..1/2 banana..I can speak and listen..XD!

Reason I play weibo is just I decided to dump Cosplay thing inside..HAHA..I want my twitter remain crazy with my thought and selfies and nonsense picture..

Then I actually remain a lot of mystery thing that I don't want to exposure to lot of human..*O3O*

Anyhow , regarding what media social I play, I also die die will let few people know..Hehe!! Thank Charlie and also Angeline..I just find bored and die die also want follow them...

You guys can ignore my weibo post but also please guide me cause there lot of chinese word I don't know how to spell/write..*T3T*~~

Maybe is also a way I can improve my chinese word..*evil smile*..Tee Hee..

Tonight must must sleep early and do more benefits stuff for myself..Tata.. 

Write at 03.07.2015 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 55* ( ANIME/DRAMA Marathon Gekkan Shoujo Nozaki Kun, One Piece and Cruel Romance)

Cause a selfie a day, keep my negative away..

So today topic is gonna be anime/drama marathon..Will straightly tell the anime/drama thought about what I have been done in my own world..LOL!!

1st anime I watch in my holiday is Gekkan Shoujo Nozaki-Kun

Thank my dear Jing Yi who intro me..^^

This drama is mostly funny-warming type of story..The only stress part is HOW CAN NOZAKI din't notice Sakura's feeling..*sigh*

But overall is a nice anime..Is not as funny as Keroro nor adventures as One Piece or other anime but this anime got their own what but with the all character personality which actually attract me..

Before watching this anime , I like Kashima cause she super cool, super admiring but sometimes very blunt and pattern..:3

Then I not really liking toward to Mikorin at first because he macam yes but then after watching mid of the story..I somehow like Mikorin a lot..*wink wink*

Cause my personality is mostly the mixture of Mikorin and Kashima..*roll roll roll*

Ok so overall if you finding a short anime to watch/spending time..THIS ONE IS A MUST..I use 1 and 1/2 day to watch finish..LOL!!!

ONE PIECE THRILLER BARK ARC..

I know I know I super slow...

I like this arc story although can said Luffy can't really win the Shichibukai(Warlord) 

But the moment I love is when how Zoro sacrifice toward to Luffy..*BROMANCE LEVEL INFINITE*

But but I think although I like Thriller Bark Arc..I actually prefer Water Arc mostly because of the design and backdrop and everything....HOHO!!

BTW, I skipped the part of Perona VS Ussop..Don't ask me why..LOL !!

I actually pause the part for ACE part..Hopefully next week I can continue ...*kyaaa*

Before I start my new semester..

Luffy, my most important husband..Mo Mo Da..*wink wink*

The next drama I have watch or somehow stop for now cause of my emoness is CRUEL ROMANCE...My 2nd Mainland Drama in 2015..First is the THE FOUR 2015(will review soon)

Ok at first I don't really want to watch cause is airing in 8TV then got this one day I was super bored so on TV and watch one episode and I get addictive toward to the character of the main lead..

So I take the initiative to youtube and find and success is got..XD

So I also did read the first opinion review and it was kinda great so continue watch..

The main lead is Huang Xiao Ming and Chen Xiao En ( I actually watch cause Chen Xiao En also one of my fav actress so watch..I usually start watch a drama it must be the main lead have to attract me or one of my fav actress/actor is inside the drama so I watch LOL and their character must be good or funny..NO VILLIAN ALLOWED) 

So what make me really watch is their love story..

I actually really easily go hyped to those "bossy man" but still trying to act romantic but fail that actually very sweet compared to those romantic man..LOL!!

So let me call him Er Ye(in drama his name is either Er Ye or Zhou Zhen..Er Ye sound nicer to me LOL) then the girl character name is call "Jing Shu/Jing Xiu" but in my twitter I keep said Jing Shu..Sorry, I not good translate..

So Er Ye in this character is so bossy yet when he show the so called kind toward to Jing Xiu, is actually make me laugh and go hyped especially when Er Ye force her to to be his woman cause at first he thought Jing Xiu like him but shy to tell and second he personally like Jing Xiu..Kyaaaa!!!

So even this drama ending is kinda urghh but due the sweetness moment and blah blah blah..I forgive the ending..LITERALLY!! =/

 See so cute..Plus Chen Xiao En always got the innocent looking..Hahaa..Innocent people always attract me..LOL

Anyhow their love story is so doki-doki..

Huang Xiao Ming, I don't really have any big fond on him like how I have big fond on Feng Shao Feng when he act 8th Prince in GONG (My 2012 mainland drama~~ =3 )

So I actually ok ok with him but the way he portray Er Ye is actually that make me go doki doki..Cause I seldom watch drama so I don't want to do any comparison..

So if you were fond of this kind of bossy+pattern+ego+unromantic type..Can actually watch this drama..Melt your heart..XD!!

And also his body shape that make girl go weee wee~~ =3 *our maiden heart*~~

CONCLUSION: Watch the progress..Ignore the last 10 episode..I look through the review from other they stated 5 or 4 but for me is 10..WHY?? 

Ok here the answer..

Don't know since when I actually will also go like second character/second lead/minor character..Don't know since when I watch drama, I will go hyped for minor character..

Although in here the second lead doesn't make go go doki-doki but got two character make me go hyped that is these two:-

There are henchman( I call them right left man of Er Ye) of Er Ye.. One is very cool and steady..He look kinda cute and more "smart"..XD!!

Another one is very cute but unsteady and more devilish and he is like the noisy fella..

So the cool one always have to control the devilish one cause sometimes he really go overboard and he treat Er Ye like buddy-master while the cool treat Er Ye like master..LOL!!

*YAOI IMAGINATION*..Wink wink!! Okok I am just kidding, I seldom put yaoi imagination on drama.

 The two cute character that attract me..

Also reason why I stop today cause they in trouble..NUUUUUUUUUUUU!! :(

Ok I will try my best to watch finish until episode 40 and then emo for a week..I WILL..

That all for today..I really hope I can update more but drama/anime/manga is my biggest weakness..LOL!!

Write at 26.06.2015 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 550 (Let everything be simple and peace??Can??)

If everything seem to be so freaking easy, confirm the chances of getting wrong answer is very high..=3=

Ok I totally screw my Management Paper..OMG..Said is chapter from a to z but I see mostly X-Z..OK FINE..LESSON LEARNED..

ARGHH!!

So I snip my fringe after like having amount of negative+stress thinking..

I actually don't know what to post but err anyway I want to thank my dear Piggie and my pet Joyeux after I settle all my mock test..I think I officially need to rest my poor eyes..=3=

Just extra note to state today 

"If I being kind/humble to you is high chances because I afraid/okok/just being nice to you"

"If I being pattern/ejek you high chances because I show you my real to you..LOL"..

This one just a nice references to use cause I feel no reason..K..Ciaoxz~~TATA!!TEE HEE

Write at 25.04.2015 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 547 (Poison or I say is a medicine for me?)

Cause I put all the picture into harddisk so can't find any single picture to post and here one of my favorites picture..Hehe!!

All these picture took during Alice's Wedding..^^

Congratxz to her ya..Tee Hee

So this month..Ok Not really this month but starting last month I was like crazy toward to this yaoi movie (China Movie) and is based by a novel... ~~

So I try my very best to find the novel through online..Seriously I used a lot of kind of way plus I am a banana..Not 100% banana but I don't know how to type chinese word so I always copy and paste..Copy and paste here and there..

I think GOD always pity me so with my 2-3 day of keep finding, finally I managed to find the novel but you know what make it more suck..I can't copy paste it..I WAS LIKE "WTH!! Find de but can't read or understand the story content" so my happiness immediately become emo within a minute then I was like hrmm haih and suddenly I look at my ipad...*go to google translate and try using the newest function*..

My happiness freaking increased!!

Although it can't fully capture all the word but at least I know what the crap is talking about.. GOOGLE TRANSLATE..THANK!!

So during the CNY, most of my free time was listening to the story and seriously is a bit headache cause is google translate who speak for me..

Thank to my dear Mun Yee who help me read few chapter..*guilty for ruined her innocent mind*..=3=~

Then you know I know..Got this one day I was like listening to this radio type of story but is under yaoi category and the first story is caught my attention..So I was like lying on my bed, putting earphone in my ear and start listening the part 1 story...

Is kinda hard to listen first cause is in chinese and is China's slang and their voice is hard for me to recognize but luckily is easy to catch up..Hehe!! I have been like listening quite a lot of story and I do picky when come to the genre story..

I can't stand of sad story..Which I regret listening one of it..Is damn sad..:(!! $%^&*()!!!

Then I get to listening another story which the Part 4 cannot load and I was like "No..Must find" and ya I get to find the part 4 to listen the happy ending..(That time is was like 3am..Yes 3am and the next day I got class)

After that I also did listen one of the video state "whoever want bad ending, listen till part 3 can de..Want happiness continue part 4"

I was like which monkey want to have sad ending, I will strangle the person..Hehe!!

So so back to my main point..

I know I get to like to do stuff which only involve myself..Just myself..

I do like mix around but I don't find is a must anymore..Maybe is a need but not a must for me..
I do feel I got few hobby that just involve with myself..No other..Myself can de..

Even listening to yaoi video, reading yaoi manga, doing own note and lot of more..Is like I can escape from reality world..Even just an hour or few hour, is still very calm world for me..

Let we praise and blame the world of IT that sometime all you need is yourself and the IT world.. *feeling so weird now*~~

Ok I have no idea why I post this but is mostly express my love toward to YAOI more deep only..Ohohoho~~ 

Can't wait tonight continue study, homework, crafting , music and my yaoi story but today already listen quite a lot le..Hrmmm...

Slow down bah.. Tee Hee.. Mo Mo Da...

Write at 10.03.2015 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 543 ( Happy Chinese Goat New Year~~)

I feel myself posting a very old picture..

This was one of my favorites outfits mix-match..

A bit like office girl+student..

Sorry..My taste of fashion is weird than I can think..*bang wall*

Is it me or what..I feel time run so fast..:(..I don't really like this feeling..I feel like WHY! I do wish time can go slow..

There a lot of thing I want to accomplish it..Serious..

I don't like halfway moment..Is suck..But I know I can get over it..I mean I can do what I want to do..NO GIVE UP!! Never!! 

Next next..Ermmm Ermmm.. I also don't know what to say..There lot of thing ruining my mind now..

Anyhow, Happy Chinese New Year..Mo Mo Da~~ :3

Tee Hee~~

Write at 27.02.2015 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 534 (20 weird thing again??!!)

Yo I am back..After missing in action for so long..I decided to post 20 thing that I feel like saying out..Current mood/happening/stuff..LOL~!

PS:Selfie inside my own room cause I love it..Tee Hee~!

1. Currently working as office work..Like so finally..Swts~
2. Over budget for buying stuff at taobao but oh well..Next year high chances only buy one??See I got kaching or not arr..=3=
3. Officially ACCA student in next year January..New life..Excited but still want to be hermit..
4. I hate math in fabric cutting..Always wrong..URGHH!!=3=..Continue doing my sewing first..Can't care much..Future if want to redo only remake again..*seeing my money flying away*
5. Can't wait for make up shopping with my babe..LOL..>///< Love her the most..I love a lot people literally..:3
6. Working in same company with my babe..YAY!! *wink*
7. Working making me stress but I cannot stress..JIA YU BAH~~!
8. My love for YAOI!! LOL..Never change..Still increasing..Kyaaaa...
9. December is gonna be a really busy month..My appointment for December is fully booking..Haha..
10. Camera finally fix..Hope I can take back nice nice picture using my baby DSLR..Not to mentioned have to pay my daddy $$$ since is I make spoil..*pouts*!
11. Next thing is I can't wait to finish my project..Hope I can done it..*NEVER GIVE UP*..LOL
12. After that I can't wait for December photoshoot with my Piggie..Casual shoot..Not related cosplay..OwO!
13. So ya I dedicated I need to jaga my face and weight very well..OMG OMG!! LOL
14. Suddenly dislike my bro so much..Reason:Just no reason~~~Booooooo~~
15. Photoshoot for my Piggie also..Hope will success..
16. Must learn be a safety driver...=3
17. Today going sleep at downstair..
18. Mood thinking to read manga..Detective Manga..Tee Hee..Or Doreamon Manga??Hrmmm
19. I forgot bring my ipad charger..SMART~=(!
20. That all for now..I love few peoples(not family people cause I LOVE MY FAMILY)!~

Bua bye~~ *If my hair is naturally like this..I happy giler lol*~=3=~

Write at 21.10.2014 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 532 (Monday Blue..I don't want to have it wei)

Outing with my Piggie last Saturday..Boooooo~~ =3 Haha

Went movie with her and BOXTROLLS is so nice to watch..It does give me a tense somehow..

Why??
These day drama/movie/anime is making me so emo..I can't even think happy ending wei..:(

Luckily Boxtrolls is happy ending although is scary..Especially when I think in reality mood..HAHA!!
Example??

Egg's father(Jeli) hang up upside down for 10 year?!! @A@..Imagine neh!!@@ 

But keep telling myself is just a movie/anime/drama

Booo~~
Same goes to drama I watch these day..HONG KONG DRAMA!! Their must die people concept is always there..Don't know since when..*boo*

Second, I been having a dilemma mood of thinking should I watch this drama or not??Hrmmm

This drama is a bit complicated..

Tittle is "You Light Up My Star"..

The story is kinda complicated..Is you really go through this pic, I think you can understand what I trying to said..Is like a square love ?!!

Seriously last time Taiwan Drama only make Triangle Love now Square..=3=..

So ya I watched episode 1 and also episode 2(1/2)..

Although the episode haven't finished airing but ish ish..Should I wait first?:(

Why I should wait??!!

1. Cause I do hope the final episode the ending is the both main character together..Ok..GOOD..=3=
2. Who main???Janice and Joe~~!!=3=
3. Is not like I don't like the second character or what but I want the both main together...OK?!
4. Arghh..Stupid mood..Blame the synopsis that make me emo..:/
5. Still having emo mood..So decide see the final before I move to next or not I will emo for my OCTOBER!:(

Booo today work not so smooth..Hope tomorrow will be more smooth..*Continue jia yu*!! *being positive is always good*

I feel myself so noob and hope I can learn as fast as possible..

I got a sense my future next coming road is ACCA and Cosplay World??I don't think I can have other life man!(INFO:FAMILY no need put cause is memang in my life de..LOL) ..This is the life I want..I guess..Silently in my own world..Tee Hee~~

Next next~~ Just keep on jia yu in everything ya..I wish October is an awesome month..Tee Hee..

Write at 29.09.2014 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 527 ( War..Tired..Stress..Suffer..Scare)

Taken during the last night before emoing for today..

Was finally trying this "360 camera" apps and is awesome..Yes..I will use that camera from now on..=3=
Although a bit lying to the whole world but oh well..Tee Hee~

My mood isn't good although yes I need to blog what happening last week..Every detail but let me mood cold down first??=/

There few facts I need to point out:-

1. I din't get to uni..=/..None uni want me..:(..*emo*
2. I hate myself now..There a lot of stuff that running through my mind..:(
3. Can I die now?=..=
4. Why I am so useless??
5. I don't really want to study that place but if that my only way then I have to accept it..Accept it..Endure all the suffer..(The place is good but I don't feel like mean I don't feel like..Not trying to act like rich girl or what..==) 
6. I got a thought of working these 3 month so I can get salary to survive this few year when I start studying??I don't know..
7. I hate debating with family stuff but I don't want just come into a new life which I don't want and bamm I have to face it eventually..=(
8. Just so you know..I just done the debating..Mom scold me but I really hope I can win back..
9. Just let me play for this whole year...Next year I can focus start study..I might late by everyone but since already late just continue late?? I will do my very best..I promise..
10. Cause actually end of the day I still want to go Account Road..Maybe I have to give up ACCA but at least Degree..Can I?

Actually I cannot let that small thing ruined me cause I need to enjoy this week very much..MUST..

I hope my parent still let me work hardcore for these three month..

Yes..Living money is family provide but at least entertainment, my own stuff, hobby and etc etc that not under "must" I can provide and buy myself..That all..Thank..

Ok..sorry for this random picture but is for tomorrow short photoshoot with my bro..I need to cheer up even I am crying..:(

I really need a lot of positive energy to fight this war..Really need..

Sorry for my fat hand..=/

Yes this pic took by 360 camera..Ehehe~

Ok..That my tired look cause I not in a very good mood..

I really hope what I wanted to do next is really good for me..I just want to go to the road that I pick if can..If really can..

The end for now..I need to calm my mind..I don't want to start any war with whoever I love..I am tired..Officially tired..=/

Write at 15.09.2014 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 526 (Spoiler mood..Emo mood..Don't know how to express it out)~

I am your most loyal member that you can find..Ohohoho..

Seldom done my fringe to middle section..Is always side so I was too bored until I do this..

PS: Look kinda weird but is alright and yes I snip my own fringe again and again..Really lazy to go saloon wei just to cut my fringe and is cost usually 5-10 buck..Expensive..:(

Not to mention that I always don't like my fringe too long or too short..I just like this average length..

Yes I been kinda hardcore to HXH when I at my downstair house since wifi been bullying me when I wanted to watch HXH inside my room..Just finished Greed Island and now is Chimera Ant Arc..There too many emo thing for me to handle..:(!!

 

Killua , Kite and Gon..

My beloved Kite..Although he just appeared few episode but can't deny he also one good looking guy..Tee Hee~~!!

After blogging I should continue since tomorrow got work..*T3T*~!

 

Another loli character I love..Biskit..That look of her is like me when I was doing my project half way..The excitement and everyday patiently for the result.. 

But seriously reality is more cruel then I expected..:(~!

 

That was my look of yesterday..Emoing plus one of my friend saying the character not suit me..:(..*haih*!!:(

The mood of giving up confirm is here de..I actually still waiting my Piggie-Seme to reply me..Maybe I just stick to one people advice that is my Piggie-Seme??=/

So want to know what I been doing my project??=/~!

 

This is it..A simple cos Saber from Fate Stay Night..=/

Trust  me the skirt is so weird..:(!! I need to use pin to pin it..*crying corner*!

Then I think next week I need proceed my ribbon making..Hope can settle everything by next week..

If I really no happy with it, I think I will photoshoot?? *puppy eyes toward to my bro*..Haha

PS:This is not full costume cause I haven't make my ribbon and also my wig and my black thingy that covered my leg~*gulps*

Well if I success then I will cos during CF..Any day..=/..*bang wall*!!:(

 

Emo stuff happening when Adila told me the news that I feel so STRESS..

That is my rayuan next week..If success then 17th need go register and then hor...

MY BON ODORI TAKDE LIAO..

I asking myself which one I want more..Of cause I want study but I don't want be apart from people I love..

But hor if study near I gonna stress myself again..Haih..:(!! *feeling myself been stressing for so many stupid thing but I don't know how to show it out*~!

Bubuuuu I been looking so many anime as in pic and is like a ticker boom..Is make me want to cos this and that but I keep telling myself that I need to improve so ya..I will focus 2-3 costume this year..Cause I not sure my study stuff and other stuff..*ouch*! 

Hrmm...I should try to repin and see how it look like..Don't want ruined my character..*pouts*~~

Currently missing so many human being..:(!! I really hope I can secure them inside my heart but I feel is unable..At the end, I always alone..*hermit turn on*~

Write at 12.09.2014 by -VoN S@N-