Chapter 380(Is to hard for me to do that..D=)

Sighh..
My eyes gonna pop out soon..D=
I feel tired but something just don't let me go sleep..D=
I hate the feeling...
Yesterday I tell a person what I really feel..
And I seriously tell that I scare..
I scare a lot of stuff..
I act strong is just don't want people see but my shield is getting broke up..
I need time to build it..D=
Sighhh.

Haixx..
I better focus my exam..
I can't disappointed my family..Right??:)
And thank a lot for people that care me..
I really appreciate it..Serious..
Although sometimes I act cool cool,emo and like md you all but actually I really care you all..
I just don't know really how to express the feeling..
Forgive me kay?T.T!!!
And if really I being cool or what just give me some time or try talk to me..I will tell you automatically..
Maybe people will say I so so stupid but I just want a simple life..:)
Not life like "宮心計"..
I want a simple friendship and so so onn..=3

Awww..So today finish my BM first exam..Sighh..I feel like I screw all my paper..D=
Hope Pn Wee can see my effort of doing it..>.<..
Tonight gambatehh SEJARAH..Rawssss..:)
Thank for people that love me and careee mee..Hehe..
I being so nerd these day..:)
Always clip my fringe on top my head..Huhu..I don't want have pimplesss..
So terpaksaa..Ngekkk
And I still mommy's cute daughter..Haha..
Ok..I really need to bath,eat and go sleep and later go tuition..

Huhu~~SUN...Can you stop being so angryy..D=
I getting die soon cause of you..T.T

Write at 10.05.11 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 379(Happy Mother Day and so on..X3)

Mommyy I loveee you..:)
Super super lovee you..
I know I not a very good daughter to you if compare with other..And I admit..T.T
Sorry Mom but no matter how I love you mommyyyy..♥♥♥

Ok..So I got a dream to post in my dear bloggie or I want tell my cute bloggie..Is like a sweet love sad story??Awww..I don't know how to say is just a dream that I had..=/

Is all started like this..
So the story let be Mr X and Miss V..Lol..Is like a very stupid story..Haha..
So so so so..
Hrmm..Errr..Okok..
So this Mr X really really love Miss V but Miss V don't want to couple first or can say Miss V don't even got any feel for Mr X..
So one day Mr X and Miss V went out and go sit on the bus..
The bus very quiet only Mr X and Miss V..Wait..Mr X are with someone..And Miss V was sitting at the back of Mr X while Mr X sit with another person..
Awhile the bus stop..And the bus driver said "go down..go down please"..
Then the aunty sitting beside Mr X say "who going down.."..And Miss V just quiet and listen to the bus driver say "the guy beside you~~"..
Continue the aunty say "who beside me..=.="..Then Miss V was shock a bit cause she know the exist of Mr X but she remain quiet..And that time Mr X was sleeping so the bus driver just continue drive as it thought that he illusion after hearing the aunty said so he keep quiet..

After Mr X and Miss V went out the bus..Miss V look at Mr X and remember something..Is like a flashback stuff..Is like a story of telling Mr X already past away last time and now he like got don't know how many month of time to with Miss V..
And only Miss V and some people can see Mr X..

So I think I just skip main point..Can?
Then what I know is Miss V try to couple and love Mr X while don't let Mr X know that Miss V know everything..
One day Miss V cry out suddenly and Mr X ask her why but Miss V just keep crying because she know that Mr X past away is cause of her..Is cause of her selfishness only Mr X past away and now she struggle with Mr X that she don't want Mr X go away anymore from her life but Mr X is a spirit/ghost..D=

And then I woke up..
That dream make me think a lot..Sighhh
But the moral of the story is appreciate the guy you love..Don't make him wait too long..You wouldn't know what will happen in future..:)

Ok..So today was a bit tired day for me again due tuition..Lol..@@..
Sighhhh..I miss mommyy a lot..And I want my energyyyy..
And one more thing..I don't know what happen to my left hand..Keep on paralyzed..Make me like a stupid people only..Sighhh...
Okok..I should go study later..Arghhh..D=
Hope I won't end up go sleep or dozing..T.T

Write at 08.05.2011 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 378(Busy Routine~~)

Eeee..I got a busy routine for this weeekk....
Everyday feel damn tired..
Want to do some revision..Do not more than 5 question I feel super sleepy de..T.T
Arghhh..D=..
I wish I can be a super girl that won't always sleep..I can use the time to do homework or revision...

Skip to today Kancil's Tuition..
Can I say is just a moment I can with my darling?:)
Haha..
Have a quite nice day with my darling..
Enjoy life and play arounddd..=)
Even do some revision at MCD with no buying food..LOL~~!!
Are we smart..Lol
Kla..Really feel enjoyy..
Thx darling make me feel so happy..
I suddenly think a lot of happy stuff..
But I know I should forget all the sad stuff kay..

Haha..
I love today but in same time I hate it also..
No reason..Just feel sad about it..
Sometimes I wish everything can shut down like a computer..
Can delete some memory..Haixxx..

Write at 07.05.11 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 377(Stop it stop it..D=)

Feel like gonna sick soon if I everyday have my life like that..Ishh
Should make myself feel better very soon..~~
Meeepss!!!
Feel moody for a lot of stuff but no matter how I must be strong for it..
Ook..

Everything seem normal but what really happen is another story..D=
Gasp gasp..I must tomorrow give back the umbrella to Louis..=)
Hehe..I will go pyramid awhile or just give back then come back home..Am I smart..Ok..Not so but no choiceee..:)
I think this is the better way to choose if compare to other..Huhu~~SO SO sorry to Louis...D=
Exam next week is here and I still so lazy and blogging..
Arghh..My headache..D=
Saddd..I hate ittt!!!Meeeppp!!><...

Hope everything will eventually be good..Muackxxx..I love you a lot blogg..Sorry so long never care you but I really feel sick and not really in a nice mood..@~@~!!
And just now I saw you got a good relationship..Feel so happy somehowww..:)
Finally some of my burden worried can take off..Huhu~~@.@..

Meeepss..
Good luck to Adila with her protokol..=)

And my darling,etc etc..Hehe..
Gonna do homework..Feel so dizzyyy~~@.@

Write at 05.05.2011 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 376(My horoscope..Damn true..)

❤ 射手座 ❤ (请大家耐心看完哦 ^^)
　　
　　
　　射手女生可能永远也不会知道自己想要的是什么，但是

她一直都很清楚，她不想要的是什么。
　　
　　她总喜欢做幕后的看客，冷冷地，静静地看着一切，在她眼里，一切都在她的意料之中，她并不觉得有什么是新奇的，如果她表现得新奇，那是因为她觉得应该这样做。她像一个看戏的人，永远置身事外。
　　
　　你不要责怪她冷漠，这是她保护自己的唯一方式。她像一只刺猬，随时竖起自己身上的刺，但她的刺不会伤人，她只是用来武装自己。
　　
　　她不敢要太多的爱，她怕享受完爱之后，剩下的只是加倍的痛。所以当别人对她过度宠爱时，她不但不会欣喜，反而会惊惧地逃走，她不知道怎样回报别人对她的爱，如果你得到她的喜爱，那是因为她已经知道如何面对，如何回报了。
　　
　　她追求那种君子之交淡如水的境界。
　　
　　她懂得爱人，但她不习惯爱人，她知道爱往往伴随着恨，而恨，是太沉重的伤痛，也是太容易让人疲倦的感情。她不想痛，也就懒得去恨，于是，为了防范恨与痛的到来，她只好选择不爱，即使爱，也是淡淡的，冷冷的。别怪她，她是真的不知道如何专注。
　　
　　她有时也很虚伪。不要指责她，她之所以选择虚伪，那是你勉强她做她不愿做但又拒绝不了的事，她不习惯承诺，也不懂得拒绝，她最擅长的是难为自己。她不想你难过，只好令自己难过。
　　
　　她总是固执地认为自己有超乎寻常的承受力，她将自己想得太坚强，而把别人想得太脆弱。她老是担心自己的行为会让别人受到伤害。她不知道，受伤的其实是自己。只是她不知道如何表现出来，她迷糊得像别人所认为的那样，将自己当成一个百毒不侵的人。
　　
　　
　　别以为她很洒脱，很多时候，她其实是放不下的-——她比任何人都要敏感，都要细腻，但她不会让你知道，她明白，即使你知道了，也是无济于事。她的心是把握不住的风，她渴望像风一样单纯而自由。
　　
　　她不是不想平静，她只是找不到平静的理由，她一生都无法明确自己在人世要扮演的角色，她只有不停地寻求，寻求自己最终的目的。
　　
　　如果她找到了，她会毫不犹豫地停下来，从此放弃心灵的漂泊。很遗憾，她永远也不会满足，她的追求永不停止。她的心再累，无法逼迫自己放弃梦想，梦想是她唯一的支撑点。
　　
　　千万别让她失望。因为她学不会原谅，她非常渴求完美，虽然她知道世间没有绝对的完美，但，她有绝对追求完美的执着。你若令她失望，她会不可挽回地离开，即使她的心在滴血，即使痛楚重得要压垮她的生命，她也绝不回头。
　　
　　
　　那个时候，你在她脸上所看到的，是让人寒心的决绝。即使她还在你的身边，她的心也早就离你十万八千里，你看不到她的恨，但是你会感受到比恨还让人痛苦的冷淡。她的离开是心灵的离开。
　　
　　她可以在前半分钟对你好得让你受宠若惊，也可以在后半钟冷漠得让你不可接受。不要问她为什么这样善变，她也不知道。当你看到她在疯狂地快乐或悲伤时，千万不要迷惑，不管她看起来是多么的疯狂，她内心其实是冷静的，她比你们任何一个旁观者更知道如何处理快乐与悲伤，她只是习惯-——也可以说是喜欢将一切都变得疯狂。
　　
　　因为她觉得这是义务，也是权利，她是制造气氛的能手，她的一句俏皮话会让一切轻快起来，但她的一声叹息又会将一切都弄得很沉重。她总是不由自主地交错操纵着快乐与忧郁.
　　
　　她并不如你们看到的那么快乐，同样，也不如你们看到的那么忧伤，只是，她忧郁时，喜欢带上快乐的面具，而当她快乐时，忧郁又不肯轻易放过她。
　　
　　在她的世界里，盛着的不是快乐的源泉，而是她不愿在人前滴下的泪水。你看到的她，笑起来像一个孩子，你有时会认为她天真得像是童话里走出来的天使。但是，你若有心，你会看到她沉静时脸上挥之不去的忧伤，还有她的眼底，竟那么凝重地积压着一种看破红尘的味道。她只有在午夜无人的时候，才会完全地释放自己。她不会在众目睽睽之下表露她的无助，她的彷徨，她的沧桑。
　　
　　她心里的，是永远流不尽的泪。你所看到的坚强，只是她在竭力掩饰的脆弱。

Special post at 03.05.2011~~~

Chapter 375(The day I be photographer for an event~~)

Today become a photographer event for daddy's sukaneka..XD!!!
Haha..Was a tired day for me..Kekeke..:)
And I think I will steal some photo that I took using daddy's dslr camera..Eeeee..XD!!

Haha..I know is very tiring to be one..But I enjoy the moment..XD!!
And I say something is true that I know some people at there..Lol..
So I wonder people join Photography club is it want be popular..I not sure..;)

All I know I was enjoy and then back house use computer not more than hour and went to sleep due too tired..><..

After wake up continue use computer..:)
Okk..

I should skip to something which make me pissed off..!!
Thank to them a lot wei..X3
So that guy really make me pissed off..Over de over de...=D

Haha..And yesterday chat with Kevin..
And he tell me that he photography club all good girl good boy..Lol..Perasan jeee!!XD!!
Kla..Memang good if compare to sidang reaksi ppl..=)
Haha..So is my mistake of simply think..Paisehh!!

><...End here..Hehe~~

Write at 01.05.2011 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 374(I must continue stay strong..!!)

O.oo
I gonna type out what today stuff..Rawww~~Be ready~~:)

So the most important stuff I online more than 8hours..Whoah..Seriously worst..Haha..=D
Ook..
Actually morning my mood wasn't so good..
I feel something is fake..=/
I feel everything is damn fake..
You really make me feel like a two-faced-person..
Luckily Hua Hau find me chat and I finally tell him that thing..I really feel sad about it..
I really feel my life is worst..=/
But when I talk to Hua Hau and Yi Hui..Then I find a way to make me stop thinking that is make myself busy..Totally busy..
Cause I know by doing that I won't feel anything..D=

And then finally my mood is better after hearing a lot of happy stuff from Hua Hau and Yi Hui..:)
Thx..
And then Shuen Bond Gor Gor find me chat..And thank to him..My mood ok a lot..
Not to forget mention that sot sot Yi Han..Haha...He really treat me like a heng dai but I don't really want tell my problem to him cause he still in his happy mood..:)
I really don't want to say bad about him but I really hate it..=/
I sometimes wish if I not exist in his life then everything will be ok..But happen is already happen..
Haixx

So now I want to state two thing..

• PLEASE!!Stop make my darling feel stressed..She no need to explain anything to who okay!!
• I hope your problem faster solve so you can really smile from your heart..

Please please let me stop think about her..
Sorry..
I don't know this is how u treat friend..
Ook..I should be alright very fast..
Remember I must stay strong..

My problem I don't want people to worry..D=
Cause I feel my problem is really a small matter to compare with it..
But when I really feel tired..I really hope my friends can support me....

GOD,Please bless Adila will alright..I can't bear look her so sad..D=

Can't wait for tomorrow..:)
Later must rush up my hw too..Hehe~~XD

Write at 30.04.11 by -VoN S@N-