Chapter 504 (That not call recover ok..=/)

Taken on Monday..My beloved husband..Hehe~!

Shit..My fat face..:(..*pouts*..

Need to be more consistence and more hardworking for it..

Meanwhile be serious about academy..I really don't want make people worried me..=/ Haixz~

I thought a long time..Am I recover?? Full recover??Actually think properly is no..:(..

I can be super ok, super normal and super happy but seriously..I hope we both can talk..I miss you..:(

I miss our friendship more than anything..I tell Voon Yee I don't dare to change profile picture anymore cause you will no more like it anymore..What I can do to get your attention like last time..

I wouldn't need to do anything and you will pop out yourself just for me..Just for this selfish girl..I can't read back those conversation..Is making me pain..

Although what..I still use your name..Like "I wish is was you who talk to me" when I talk to my friends..Put you into my joke..Cause I need to be like normal..Haixz..

Please..I everyday praying that you will talk to me..Don't let me wait too long..Don't let me feel struggle..Don't let me feel suffer anymore..Can you??Please..=/

I still like an idiot waiting you to find me chat one day..Please make it happen..Please..

Anyhow conclusion..Be happy and smile..

Haha..There so many stuff I feel like doing it..First of it is to ermm well help my boyfiee..Hope I can help her..No obstacle and such thing..Me love boyfiee..:3

Second is exam+persuading skill..Neh..

Ermm..The next 3 following day please make it success..My dad won't kill me right..Tee Hee

Please be normal ya..And ya..I telling my boyfiee the reason I exercise is like I wanted to have something I want for myself not everyone..Maybe is like building my own confidence..Nah who know right..:)

PHOEBE TAN VON SAN!!JIA YU..YOU CAN DE!! TEE HEE..To archive a lot of your dreams and stuff and everything..Tee Hee~:)

Write at 04.03.2014 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 503 (Smile cause it happen not cause it over..Tee Hee)

I know is hard to see my doodles??Haha

I was planning to write down my wishlist but end up..I keep on draw and keep on write nonsense..

You saw the two skeleton figure drawing..Ya..I always love the sharp side hairstyle and that is me..Sometimes I feel if I live in ancient kingdom, I will be like this..I am the princess girl who is so lady-like..*konon* Haha

And if I am modern..nah I am modern kid, wearing my t-shirt and usual pant with my daily hairstyle..Tee Hee

The mood of drawing is here but the mood of study??Hrmmm..Haixz..Terrible..TT!!

I don't know why I said this..Smile cause it happen but not cause it over..I mean I shouldn't cry over the split milk so I must stay strong and be positive that all these thing is mean a big story in my life..I can't change back the past nor I can mend back the positive cause forcing you wasn't a thing I like to do..Can't deny there got few stuff I still want to do cause you once my very important friend..Actually now also yes but I can't force you to treat me like I am your important friend right??No force..*feel like a stock*..

I always feel myself like a stock de la..=_=..Ahdoi!~~That why I must enjoy everyday cause I cannot know tomorrow am I still here or not..*pouts*

Confidence smile looking me..LOL..Oh well oh well..~~

Need to take care my face like kao kao..TT!!

Geezzz..:(

My knee is in pain..All my exercise have to hold cause I really got no energy to walk few more steps..=/..Or maybe do upper part??><..Hrmm..*will think about it*

Please my dear knee, faster recover kay..Walking with a pain knee is killing me..Me hate it..Haixz..

Tomorrow first day of work..Better sleep early, prepared stuff early and so so on..Tee Hee..

Wish myself have a wonderful March all along way..:)..I can't wait my biggest plan that is persuade my parent about ACCA..X3

Write at 28.02.2014 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 502 (Recover?Sick?Ok?Not ok?)

Pic on February..I look like a foreigner that not in Malaysia and travel around taking picture, looking stuff and enjoy life that most people thinking too..I got a few dream that I wanted to archive..I think I should start doing my wishlist soon hope is soon..*headache*

Depression sickness..I once have it but that time I am nobody..I just a small human that only have few super close friends..I don't have a big connection with anyone nor anybody..

Plus that time I like a naive kid, so I show my moodyness so easily without thinking twice..My sickness is always there but I just tell few how my feeling and thought and everything..

I no need care how other think of me cause they also don't know me..I also don't know them..

However now is different..I still not a popular kids but my connection is increased by times..I can't show people my emoness, can't show out how suffer I am through those sentences and word..I only can keep to myself..I can't let people worried me..I am having headache..I don't want show my weakness to other cause they always think I am a strong girl..I must be steady and strong..Is pain, is hard but I must put myself the cold winter protection..I am Phoebe, the ancient greek girl..She a goddess and now I have to stay strong as Phoebe..The modern so called boss of OPMAW~

I post in Dayre about how much I don't want change profile picture cause I know he won't like anymore..If like this, I got think why not your block me..Is pain, I will cry but I hate showing weak so I will still admit my high pride..Why not??

By: Phoebe

Pls..I hope you can talk to me..:(..Please can you be like last time toward to me??=/..I everyday hoping and hoping till I sometimes feel like I cannot breath..I feel like can I end my life or can I sleep for a long long hour so I no need to go back reality.... By :Von San

So now seriously saying..I am not feeling well..Headache??I don't know..I cannot really go sleep..People go work that time, I go sleep..I even accepted the challenge of 100days of happy..I can archive cause I can be happy in few hour then emo for long hour..Anyhow..I must be alright..

I miss you..=/..

When he want that time, she refuse and push a lot of reason..When she notice she want also, he avoid and ignore..

Everything is so wrong..

Write at 27.02.2014 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 501 (I couldn't said much but still..:')

Decided to exchange pose?Nah..If I use open eyes, I sure will give u a tired emo looking..

Trust me..Sleep for less than 1 hour is sux..=(!! 

Tonight must find back my beauty sleep..(HELLO, u still sleep late~~=-=)

Anyhow..Haha I miss my boyfiee so decided to take picture before I continue my nap inside car..*pouts*

Kachingg~~Salary is coming..*feeling happy*...Can continue do my stuff..HAHA~:) TEE HEE~

Ermm..Study..Drama and so much more I need to be accomplish since March is gonna be a busy month wei..=3=..So much thing but so little time for me..NO GIVING UP..I should start doing the hashtag of 100day of happy..Oh well..TODAY GONNA BE FIRST..I shy..I post in blog, you won't mind?:D

Hrmm..I feel like make a special post for Voon Yee..I mean thank you, she always there for me..Always let my craziness gone more worst..And let me cling on her..Seldom my friends let..They afraid I am les..*pouts*..:D

Oh well, I will one day post..I mean I will write in word so is like another black and white document again..Tee Hee

Cause I really appreciate her a lot just like how I freaking appreciate other..

Anyhow..I thinking I need to train my another level..Be alert and awake like the movie "300"..If I not mistaken is like keep the energy and so so on.*feeling k.o very soon*..Headache pain till a level I cannot describe..

Exercise must be keep on continue..*wink wink*~Can't disappointed myself..Especially myself..:) 

Happy Day 1~

Write at 25.02.2014 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 500 (An slightly update what happening?)

Sometimes I really feel myself got a different image.=-=!

1. I can be acting innocent smile and everyone thought I am a very good girl..(WAIT!I AM A GOOD GIRL)..:)
2. I can be like weirdo acting cute..(FAIL ONE)
3. I can be sampat girl that asking "do you want a kiss?" Tee Hee
4. Crazy..Just plainly crazy..The End~~

As usual, if I don't post at Facebook picture, I sure post at blog..Since blog not really famous plusssssss is fun back to see back my picture..Especially those retard but no sense..Hrmm Okok..Back to main topic..:(!

Cinema with papa..:D

The show was okok..Ermm Maybe I feel like the book is much more complete becauseeeeeeeeeee....

I also have no idea..:)!

Thank Jie Jie for the treat..:D!

Feel like want to watch more and more and more movie..Is like entertainment is way too many until ermmm I NEED TO GO STUDY!!:(

Oh well..I love Courage..He so cute..Macam my Bobby..:(

Bobby~Oh~Bobby, please be alright..I can't afford to lose you after losing contact with Bubble..

Jie Jie will always love you ..My dear Bobby..

Oh well..They always said the strangest human is the coolest??ME..*wink wink*!!

I am really born to be weird and strange..*pouts*~

Last pic for last post for today..:D

Well..:(

Haixz..

Love..

Never..

Been..

So..

Easy..

To..

Me..

I cannot think anymore..Can I make myself everyday emo so I can get your attention??Can I have a selfish request toward to you??

Or I thinking how to recover myself using 2month??Since 1 month is over..As Adila always said 3 month feeling theory..@@..

I cannot lost him can de..No matter what..><!!*piff*!!

Write at 21.02.2014 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 499 (Dream??!!What is all these..*pouts*)

*Mata sepet Feeling*..X)

Tee Hee..
Just got a thought must upload a pic everytime wrote a blog so my blog won't be so dull..Tee Hee

Face condition never been good recover..*pouts*

Will make sure love my face and also continue my training..:)

Also my study..*meeps*!

Oh ya..I just hate dream sometimes..I mean it can kill me indirectly somehow..Is like my another mind that telling me something..Something worst or something good..I have no idea..@_@!

So ya got two dream..But the stupid two dream is also got this human inside..:(...Who the human..The human name Jason..*pouts*..I just hate it la..@@~!!

Let me recall the first dream..Is like somehow sweet and weird..OMG..I don't know la..

Von San, your fa hiao level don't until like that kay!:(

Doesn't mean cause you know you gonna lose him so you being stupid and idiot again!!:(..Arghh..:(!!HAIX~

I can't deny the dream is somehow sweet and somehow romantic??I don't even think got the romantic element is there wei..:(

Whatever it is..Is just somehow buuuuu..TT!~

I only know the dream make me feel like "can I continue so I can know the ending?:("

Those dream is horrible making me feel suffer somehow..I can't do anything to save it anyway..

Cause sometimes I rather living in the happy dream..A dream I prefer..

Write at....by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 498 (Should I or Shouldn't I??)

Happy Valentines Day Human Being..:D

Dedicated from me and Miss Ho~:D

Always go and kacau her at work..Well..I bored mah..Plus the time I find is usually clash to Crystal...Bububu~~:3

Oh well..Valentines Day..*meep*..:D

Also Cap Goh Mei's Day..Haha..Such a happy day..*SUPPOSED BE THE HAPPY DAY*

Actually there got a video..Damn freaking funny..Haha..I posted in FB..Hope people will give more like..So I can convince Voon Yee to video with me another time..*should be la~~*..Wakakaka~~

Oh ya..I thinking to tell it out today..I mean after the incident..I really feel like THANK GOD who passing me an angel to take care me and so many thing..><!!OMG..Is damn scary and thank GOD I can settle within my level..*calming myself*

Need to be more careful I am serious more careful cause I can't take any risk to do crazy stuff..I still want to have my own fun and steady adventures waiting for me..LIKE SO SERIOUS!!><

Hrmm..What next??!! 

I don't know..Wait la..I actually I know..STUDY..RETAKE!!DAMMNIT!:(

PIFF~:( 

With the peeps..:)

I miss them freaking much..

The End For Now..

PS:I miss you too..Heart freaking pain..I don't want this feeling to be existed anymore..

Write at 14.02.2014 by -VoN S@N-