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Wednesday, September 12, 2018

Chapter 570 (Epilogue)


Nom wake up, it was just a peaceful Sunday, perfect for Nom being lazy but then suddenly the early morning of RO Midgard still having this emergency maintenance...

“Ok, leveling later since probably 50% or miracle pot coming innnn~~” Nom thought to herself then she thinks is the time for her to sort out all the picture that she screenshot throughout the game and take it to print.
She went through a lot of pictures, there are some players who remain the same and some new friends that she knows.

RO is indeed a world that is not big nor small.

Probably 50% is conquered by the bots player and perhaps every each of us is able to on the maximum of 3 accounts.

So let just said RO have around 1000 real hand player and how many you can really know and befriend with?

Even Nom herself who is quite active only able barely to know less than 50, If consider closer friend? Less than 30 ==?!! Or perhaps even lower than that number.

So is really normal even most screenshot is those her friends that from last time and till now who is really just a casual player.

I mean, they already treat RO like a casual chit-chatting place OmO?!!!

Funny is whereby sometimes there the picture that has Nom’s main character and her hubby-in-game and sometimes there his baby priest is with Nom. Although Nom knows once a blue moon, her friend which is her hubby-in-game will online, look around, exploring, lvling for 30 minutes then offline. However, the majority time is Nom who controlling the characters.

Of course, as time goes by, the amount of her hubby-in-game login is getting lesser and even lesser.
If you able see him online himself once a month, probably is a miracle ahhhh...

╮( ̄▽ ̄"")╭

After Nom sorting out her pictures to print, she then back to discord and start spamming in the chat room whereby is getting quiet by day to days.

Sometimes Nom feels herself is like a joke, trying her best to talk to everyone and then start regretting thinking perhaps those people might dislike her in some way.

After a while of spamming, there go, no reply which is very normal on Sunday itself.

Nom then wish her parent, in-game parent morning and her friends too and she then sees back those pictures she had printed back then.
She then looks at one of few pictures is whereby they are doing the Kiehl Dungeon Quest, she then recalls that Kiehl actually quite a pathetic man, he loves Allysia but even he can’t get her heart but by making a robot that is 100% like Allysia, why not?

Okok, I know what you thinking, Nom’s husband in game character 99% is no longer have any soul inside and is fully control by Nom but that doesn’t mean Nom is behaving like Kiehl?!!! Seriously noooo ahhh!!
Nom herself understand this more than everyone, what is the use of getting the person if you can’t get the heart.

This is much painful for both Nom and her husband-in-game so Nom just uses it like normal and use it as if this character just belongs to her, not her husband in game.

Honestly, previously Nom sure hold a grudge that it was her husband in game fault.

Like seriously if you are not serious with a girl then stop showing much affection and other extra things, well, lesson learned.

Although previously Nom already trying her best not to received as much gratitude stuff from him and already clear out most of the thing that she thinks she had owed him, and even more. This teaches her a good lesson that never really receive too much help or nice gift from a guy whereby you know he thought he like you but in the end, it wasn’t that case.

Memory of Nom with her husband-in-game is indeed memorable but like a weather or a normal chart, there are time whereby you received all the love, happiness and attention and there was time whereby you know stuff happens but unwilling to accept the truth, well of course, when the moment you know the truth and finally accept it.

That the time you need to figure out what to do, what is your mindset.
Angry? Sad? Just let it go? Or what?

Nom has been through this, well, luckily it wasn’t any big case.
Crying is normal during that period, it was like a month of monsoon, whereby you just have the urge to cry every day and feeling frustrate and unfair.

After that, you know that the road is not at the dead end. One of Nom’s most fav jie jie said this to her “What if he really stop playing, how about you?”

Nom replied “I first play was alone, it was only him, I able to play until now, with all the equipment and headgear and stuff I have, I don’t think I will stop? Perhaps casual player like now?”

The jie jie just smile, maybe she know Nom is trying to be strong or perhaps Nom is strong. (⁎⁍̴̛ᴗ⁍̴̛⁎)

So even at the end Nom husband-in-game only can say sorry and besides sorry, just sorry which Nom already getting fed up by listening/reading/hearing.

Perhaps let just said people want to remain, nice human, then let Nom be the badass one.⁄(⁄ ⁄ ⁄ω⁄ ⁄ ⁄)⁄ I mean what can you do if another side only sorry and sorry and just sorry. 
(Let me on the song sorry sorry sorry for you)

Nom tell him let everything back to normal, he didn’t say yes nor he said no.

If he can’t make the decision, Nom make it for you.

Even is pain and cruel and shitty and so hypocrite but hey, the reality we all are consider 20++ years old adult, we no longer have the time to “oh I hate you so I am not going to talk you anymore even I honestly feel that time you treat me like a shitty item ==?!”

Probably this will happen if the case is as big as like the whole world know it ==

But it wasn’t any big case, is just small and minor, so let it treat it like a normal case.

Nom know herself divorce won’t be an option anymore because the skill for marriage couple is nice (*/ω\*)... plus now she got the gain of having a high-level attacker to play and the name for that character also quite nice.

While Nom sits down and nostalgia those last time issue, story or anything, suddenly there a discord message from one of her channel.

“Server is up.”

Nom then immediately without any hesitation, online her maid character, sitting down at the town of alde then suddenly there was this character who talks to Nom.

X: Eh, why not you divorce and married me, I also let you play my characters lol.
Nom: Don’t want, I got my sniper already, good enough. /lv
X: zzzzz... 
Nom: Hahaha, sorry. So what you want to do?
X: /sigh.../pat...Let collect quest and then we do together if got the same one?
Nom: Okieee... *open warp to Prontera*
After the collections of the quest.
Nom: I got like 3 characters is doing this and 2 is that? Ermm I do those is fast one then the 3 same one only party?
X: /ok

While halfway walking one of Nom’s character, another of Nom’s friend come and talk to Nom.

Friend: Nom, why don’t go with this one../gg
Nom: I don’t want to. ==
Friend: He is good what.
Nom: Last time you also said that one is good ==
Friend: That one.. err.. throw far away, choose this.
Nom: Oh lord, bye.
Nom quickly did the quest for one of her character and log out.

Nom know till now, she already has a phobia or trauma of all these things.
Sometimes just let her enjoy this game as much as possible.
There no black and white contract that saying one person will play with you forever, so in order to feel safe and sound, the best way is to play and encounter new or people she had known throughout the game, enjoy every day in the life of RO Midgard.

Then Nom retype those 3 characters that received the same quest with X..

Nom: Sorry for waiting.
X: Is okay
Nom: QAQ hahaha okay, eh, if got that headgear... Borrow me wear QAQ!!
X: I give you...
Nom: Borrow, when I got my one then I pass back to you.
X:...
Nom: Ok that how it works. /heh
Well, perhaps is just another normal day in RO Midgard World ^^.
The End.
(Story and character are just imaginary and if there any similarity, errrr ?!! Won’t have ahh)

PS: Nom know herself not so famous but err let just imagine someone is always there for Nom Muahahah!!! (Self-love is really important ahhh)


Tuesday, September 11, 2018

Chapter 569 (Should we restart again? XD)


I wonder am is this blog still alive or RIP... Hmmmm
Well, let said it still alive?~

Soooo after a longgg , century years? Or time? I found out that perhaps the feeling is like a process...

Apparently, something kinda bad happens on me...
(To the future me who is reading this, trust me, it wasn't that bad and you probably won't feel like a bad thing anyway)
Let just assume is love problems... Well, why I said it wasn't that bad. Highly reason is that I keep telling myself that "self-love" is the most important essence in our life ... 

Disclaimer:-
This wasn't a big case to talk about but the reflection of this accident actually is a good thing for me to type it out and also enhance my "love consultant" being a professional to seek out my friends and love one <---Which don't have any license for it ya ~.

So make it short, I got heartbroken, literally yes... Is been a long time I have this kind of feeling toward a guy...
The last time I had heartbroken was in the year 2014? Well, that time I will said timing is not right or probably I know he just treat me like a little sister.
So let forget it and I am still kinda happy that my friend and he are so fucking sweet together.... Awwww....

Then what is the point I am writing this??
Well, perhaps in future if I or my friends which I hope don't encounter this kind of "heartbroken" or any situation...
Really, always remember to love yourself...
I remember my technique when handling this case is usually..


"Ok, I let you cry, let you rant, let you do any crazy stuff as long....remember as long...Not self-hurt, no hurting yourself, no illegal stuff"

PS: I am a good citizen anyway~~


Next, after all this madness, sit down and think properly:-

1. You can regret for the past.
OR
2. Appreciate for the past..

Well, of course, when it started, hardly will have people can appreciate the past, including me. I was cursing, angry, hating myself and so much more but after crying out loud, ranting to people who I super close to...

I don't want people to say bad about the guy I like nor pity for me.
So in order for that thing not happen, I choose to appreciate the past, the moment, the times whereby he really likes me, treat me like a princess, adore me like I am his only one.


(Ya, I  am trying to ermm write more story , a probably short story so I can remember? I really hate my goldfish memory sometimes ==)

Then I remember I said this thing before, nothing last forever, his love for me had ended, I can't complain nor I can grunt over everything, instead of seeing him saying sorry to me and pity over me... I choose to act like as if we are a stranger or better word, acquaintance...


(Let play the music "Someone That I Used To Know")


Anyway, I do wish him all the best and filled with happiness.... QAQ Afterall, he is my friend, I don't like to make an enemy and I am rather kind of happy to see people filled with happiness... 

With him, is one of my sweetest memory probably in year 2018... Well, I can't say in my life because I will be encounter more and more happiness in future. Always be in positive mode!!


Like my every year wishlist or what you call as motivation/target/life quotes or my vision.

More Memory, Less Regret

Last but not least, how to know are you really letting go? Or really stay in the past? I really don't know. Everyone has their way to put a conclusion.
However, if you ask me.
I will only said, "the moment you are no longer angry or really doesn't really matter for what he do, perhaps that is the time you really letting go."
I am not sure for now, did I really letting go because I still want to wish him all the best, hoping him doing good with what his is doing right now and perhaps we can be friend back, perhaps one day?? ..LOL
(I never give up with the concept "friend" ya) 

Oh well, I actually want to wrote some happy stuff but I feel like this chapter is more or less...Hmm, is like a omgggg..I KNOW
one of the page in my LOVE LOVE THEORY!! ^^

Till Then..

Hopefully I can try update a bit more??? *WINK!!!

Type at 12.09.2018 by -VoN S@N-

Sunday, March 19, 2017

Chapter 567 (First photoshoot in 2017 O3O)

First photoshoot in 2017
Nozomi in Hanfu Version.

Want to try blog back but I don't know this year I can contribute how much post...Orz :(
I remember how much I love my blog that I can post almost everyday but of cause when I getting older? Errr more like my priority keep on changing and changing then my blog somehow got abandon but I don't want to give up on my blog.

I feel like whenever I really need a rest or something, blog or only in this place, I can find peaceful-ness...
Another word, I feel myself too annoying until I don't think I can get along with anyone but somehow I am glad that the starting of 2017, there is nothing big change? Maybe I should contribute a post for this matter? Hrmmmm

Ok back to the photoshoot topic:- (All photos took using my iphone6, with selfie stick, selfie light (Indoor using it) and 360 camera apps, too lazy using photowonder..Hrmmm)

Thanks my beloved Piggie for this shoot.
Sometimes or most of the times, she does nag me for those shoot because costume bought so must shoot but I am damn lazy T3T
Real fact, I just scare my posing will trouble photographer haha..I am not a good poser..:')
Although I must admit my selfies is pro...*wink wink* HAHAH

Michael the photographer!! OmO!! Million thanks oh~~ Hahaha..
Thanks for shooting our Hanfu version..
I do hope in future if I can managed to ask Piggie to do a Hanfu (No any version) just Hanfu, maybe can ask Michael again, wonder will he say yes or no..LOL
Let see how in future since I admit I am quite lazy to cosplay...
Priority changes :/ Boooo~!!

Last but not least, post this one..My innocent look with my weird hand pose hahaa..Oh dear.. :(

Write at 19.03.2017 by -VoN S@N-

Thursday, November 3, 2016

Chapter 566 (Lovely Selfie+Continue UK POST!)

Gambling a happiness of chips,
In the street of full of peoples think about him,
How is him right now?
However I can't give you the answer you want.
But you must filled with happiness ah.

【美聲】【雲雀】你一定要幸福——許久不見的你,還好嗎?【PV付】

Nice selfie right, I also think is nice, Haha...Look so docile good student... The real fact is so horrible anyway...*dig nose*

14.06.2016

6am 
Malaysia time is 1pm.. I think my sleeping time routine is suit in UK...Information, now more worst...LOL I totally sleep at UK Time...*3*

8:23am My mom scold me cause why I wore short pant..Err mommy, I only got one long pant.
Have to wear legging de..
Apparently. I don't have any long pant before I go UK so I throw all short pant and really mom nag me like hell..T_T

Don't care is at where but ice-cream is a must to eat! *nom nom*
9:37am Time to go out and play. Really love the weather in here. Chill and cold. Ok I spot a horse!! *meeps!* Btw, I forgot to mention own thing that is their bus inside don't have aircond.You know I used to said I like BRT because aircond. I need cold air but in UK bus, I think even don't have aircond is still kind of windy, of cause out of the bus, is cold!!!!!!!!! *freeze*!!!

10:24am Sitting on top of this bus.(is this what you call double-decker?) Not deny I don't like man to super near close to me, not your problem, is mine. Wish you can walk out from this bus...I just don't like...I am....*slap myself*!


All happily eating ice-cream..:D

11:00am Stumble a shop and seriously saying I have no idea what to buy for friends, all the item look so expensive for me..T3T If there a way I can delivery food back, I confirm will. Just noticed out that I actually willing to spend money on food and make up or beauty product. Even in Malaysia, food, make up product or beauty product... *wink wink*

12:20pm I spend 100 pound..Don't ask me what I spend..I want to cry...T3T Ok I spend another 100 pound..Stress..Kill me please.. Please visit my funeral because I spent 50 pound again! Wth usually I can spend 100 pound for like a month plus in Malaysia. OmO ..T3T

1:36pm I just noticed that their staircase is very scary, I am scare..T3T Luckily that I no longer afraid of staircase hehe..*I used to have phobia of staircase*

2:25pm Ermm time for resting hehe..

4:00pm Is super windy here, my wifi seem to have problem again..Sad Die Me!

4:20pm Err, I lost my lips balm, want cry already..If I not mistaken the lips balm I just bought and is lost, like wth? Damn~!!

5:30pm Time to go eat and today eat with Mommy's ex-boss. One more sentences I don't want to spend money in here again, or not I will cry...

5:50pm I think I am a worst kid ever, I am not denying that I got a bit of jealous..*geez*! Oh gosh, I guess I am a very possessive seme.( ̄^ ̄)ゞ <--- feeling="" font="" gosh="" hell="" i="" increased="" jealousy="" kill="" level="" like="" man="" me="" my="" need="" now.="" oh="" out="" someone="" spam..i="" t_t="" throw="" to="" wifi="">

6:45pm I actually planned to tell out what I feels tonight but sighed..Something is better kept inside my heart.(INFJ problem)

Me and the cutie pie little brother...Hehe!


7:25pm Now sitting this long type of bus to go back home. Feel guilty making little bro emo..*dig nose* but he is damn darn cute haha! Kai Ting is damn adorable..I am still saying kid that age around 4++ always attracted me haha!!

9:30pm Back to home..Mommy making the bread toast again..Very yummy although unhealthy but what to do, is food and yummy and they said unhealthy food sometimes very yummy!! Muahahah!

10:35pm Resting at home while is time for MengMo fanfic!! *love* Need to read all the fanfic that get tagged *love love love*Funeral forget about it..only spend on food..Cheap food..
(Please there is nothing cheap in here!..Sandwich 2pound feel so cheap until convert system pop out...Is 12buck.)
PS:Now think back is actually quite ok with the price, the food there is so yummy, even slightly expensive also feel hrmmm, not that pricey...HEHE!
Now time for rolling on bed, hugging elephant.
Btw, Malaysia time should be 5:40am.

Ok till then!! HOHO!

Write at 03-11-2016 by -VoN S@N-


Sunday, October 30, 2016

Chapter 565 (Old post plus random)

Fall in love with you is an accident
Hoping this accident can stay forever..

Let continue my post from UK!

13.06.2016
Now is 8:28am, going to my second flight then will finally see mama. All the feeling is so mix up right now. T3T
Sitting this bus that will take me to my flight and my first feeling is "same as BRT"
8:38am(Amsterdam Time)

The second plane due to small one so there is no TV for me, end up sleeping. Thought should be playing Ipad but end up still sleep..LOL

9.07am
Got snack to eat then continue sleep..Btw,those stewardess is so pretty hehe!!
The bread is very yummy and so does the biscuit..*happy stomach filled with food*

ALL IS SO YUMMY AH!! T3T I suddenly miss this snack..*sob sob*


9:33am
Reaching soon maybe in 10 more min. Ok so time going to change to UK which is 8:33am now. Malaysia time is 3:33am.

Now in UK



9:40am
Finally can see mommy..TT...something feel so unreal and unrealistic..Can time stop now?? But I want my daddy beside me..*suddenly feel myself is a selfish kid*

9:44am
Omg, the house is so nice!I really love the house in UK, something old yet comfy... >///<
Ok I am like a kampung kid looking around..*dig nose*
They said 50 pound is cheap to drive and back from house to airport to house too.
I was like 50 pound...Errr 300++ le, where is the cheap?@.@

Mommy room, small but comfy..:)

10:11am
Reached to mommy house.
I am so emo right now.
Btw I actually like UK building. *hrmmm*

Inside...>///<


11:50am
I am tired and sleepy..Doze awhile first..*Listening to Shamo's cover song*

Me and Mommy *love*

Me and Leng Ma...*love*


12:55pm
I end up din't sleep lol!
Now going out and explore..Hoho
Cause is my fist time sit double decker hence I I sister to sit at the top..XD!

1:13pm
No double decker, stress so is ok..~
Mommy said under family package will be 8pound++ all day..(mommy and aunty said cheap..) Errr 46++ le..*convert mood turn on*

1:32pm
When parking weekday is more than weekend..Like seriously?!
Come all way here eat Burger King. I am pro lol~!
First food cost 6.39 pound..I want cry..Give me a room now.
O.O the penny size is so cute and different..

The coins

3:00pm
I think I am going to spend 25 pound for a pair of shoes..I want to cry..=~=..150 buck..*heart break to pieces*..Someone borrow me a knife to stab myself.

4:25pm
I just notice one thing, my mom here drink Evian(the expensive mineral water)..omg Malaysia here so expensive..*Mom, salute!*
Oh ya, there this guy that came from China and damn he is aged of 30 but look young.
No wonder my Shamo , Xiao Meng and Xiao Cai also look like teenager.(noted: they just 20++ ok!)



5:00pm
Went to visit my mom's preview boss and awww...Those kids is so adorable cute and also adorable monster.(Those nails is done by those kids if you wondering)
Today I feel myself spend 80 pound?! =~= *ok I really need people to give me a knife and stab myself*

Say hiiiiiiii to those adorable kids *kyaaa*


7:48pm
Malaysia time should be around 2:26am.. Ermm I don't really have any jet lag moment but can't deny I got a bit tired. TT
Mommy told me the wifi is down when it rain.TT
I saw some of MengMo/MoMeng tagged me in their fanfic. The urge of reading is here.XD
Mommy making pasta today and why I can type so much cause I am lying on the sofa while hugging elephant.


8:54pm
Mommy forbid me to go out and in anymore because ermm I already took bath and my eyes is getting red..😭😭😭
Mommy tell me to sleep first but then she said eat mee, ya no pasta de. Eat mee then sleep.
Hrmm. I think that all for today.

Ok end of today and again crapping level increase lol!

Alright tata, PS: I selfie a lot during UK trip, no joke...HAHA


Wednesday, October 19, 2016

Chapter 56(heart) (Spam old post??)

One of my selfie during UK Trip...
(I been repeat time and time but yes, my face is damn flawless during UK Trip, 360 camera settle everything, no need extra edit)
So I decided to spam my UK trip in here since already type in my phone so will slightly modified...Hoho~

12.06.2016, went inside the flight. 

Inside Flight
Is my first time on flight for going to such a far away place.(The feeling of scare+excited and so many thing is mixed up)
Sincerely saying, I really got a bit scare due is long trip and I rarely go out....I am such an ancient human being~~


My sis and my dad send to the airport...Hehe!! Together with my Kai Ma (Ah Peng) and one more aunty...My sis bless me to have fun which I also bless myself to have fun too..LOL!

Back inside the flight.

I not sure is it I deleted other picture but this is the only picture I can find in my phone LOL!

The night view is so beautiful, I don't know how to describe it but is like an art.
By the way, I watched Zootopia because they don't have BL movie. *They should just insert Youtube, then I can watch MIR*
So after that is the following next day, I keep on playing with country time because I am damn bored. Not to mention that I sat alone during inside the flight, so ermm hrmmm, I am totally alone but since I don't want with my Kai Ma or with aunty, if they touch certain topic that I don't like, not good ah~

(13.06.2016)

Malaysia time:1:36am
Thanks to the noisy airplane sound , I end up close Zootopia and listen to some Chinese song but seriously they don't have any song that I listened.(ok, some Jay Chou, Wang Lee Hom etc etc also ok cause I know they confirm don't have those music I always listen...My taste of listening music change...Booo)!

Around 1:50am Ok, I finally found some music I always listen..XD!!!

Now is 2:13am They close the light while I am listening to Della Ding song..Hoho
AwA, I actually want wifi right now, want to check on my wattpad, my Weibo, spam Twitter and Insta.
Bloody Angel watching MIR.(is ok, I only watch when Eng sub is available) listen song and tried to sleep and I saw the guy beside me got orange juice, Hrmm I wait they open light and I am going to ask for orange juice too..*I also want eat ahhh*!

3:09am I tired to sleep, cannot, listen music sleep=cannot. No music then sleep=cannot..Errr...Don't tell me I need wait around 5am++ only can sleep?! My sleeping time is totally become worse. Someone want save me? T3T
I guess my life is really a must to have wifi..

5:00am Woke up from my sleep. Guess I just sleep like one hour? Ok stomach not feeling good..why I am a unhealthy kid?!<----i complain="" feeling="" i="" sick..="3=</font" whenever="">

7.20am Woke up again and one thing I can said I cannot difference my stomach pain or gastric pain. All I know is sleep and tried to ignore my pain.

8:50am I check out outside the window, the light amused me again and yes I have constipation..Moody moody. Now cannot sleep so watch movie..re-watch Zootopia because Zootopia is love LOL!

10:32am Got Big Hero 6 movie and I haven't watch yet and so many movie I also haven't watch yet....Movie time!
Did people told me that Hero is such a cool ass human!!! I need him as my boyfriend!!k I need Tadashi as my boyfriend..I need a gentleman.. Ok I want baymax as my boyfriend..(How many human I want it to be my boyfriend???HRMMM!!)
I took back my word, Tadashi win my heart..What the!! Handsome! Gentleman! Win!

10:50am Is time for breakfast!! First time breakfast in plane, got a bit nervous and excited and breakfast is love..Breakfast+Big Hero is Love!
My breakfast...Hue Hue..(I found back some old picture)
Ok why Tadashi die?! Ok why my Tadashi die?! Please explain to me.. 11:09am Ok satisfied breakfast but seem like my stomach have that pain again..Sigh, when I will reach to my next transit.?? =3=
11:29am Another 45 min I am reaching the the next place which yay! Finally can steal free wifi, contact papa and mama~~!!
11:48am Some announcement state that I am going to arrived to this Amsterdam soon...Err let me watch finish Big Hero first..
11:56am Why you steal Tadashi away and then steal Baymax...I want cry now..*praying I can watch finish before I reach to a new place that is 6 hour behind from Malaysia... Yay Baymax never leave I want Kobe and Bobby now..They are my personal companies.

12:04pm (13.06.2016)

Malaysia time.
(My 12 hour of sitting this plane finally over..Butt pain
6:04am(13.06.2016)

Amsterdam Time( this place is so green..)(that is what I saw above)

12:19pm I thought I might use my data but no service..Errr..Free wifi, where are you?

~~~
All for now...
My favorites pic for my first flight, AwA!
Yes by judging this picture, I sit at the corner that nearby window hoho~~ Love ya~

Write at 19.10.2016 by -VoN S@N-

Tuesday, October 18, 2016

Chapter 563 (Pooofffffffffffff~)

Feel like super long time never do blogging and I don't know where to start with...
So just want post a picture to remind myself, if I were to get lonely again, I still got my blog ahhhh!!~

Write at 18.10.2016 by -VoN S@N-