Chapter 562 ( A visit to a place)

Hi human..

My name is Phoebe..

A girl who studying ACCA ( dying in ACCA) 

A weirdo girl that rarely admit she is human..

OK..

Back to serious topic..Opps~~!!

So today I go to Shah Alam myself which is very rare, although I no longer "P" but still I don't have that habits to drive far away places unless is the condition forces me or most of the times, I got friend accompany me to go to those places but today is just me alone, with my phone and bag to go to Shah Alam just to visit one of my darling.. 

DARLING SEE HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU!! SO LOVE ME MORE OK?OK?OK?

Here my beloved darling..

She tall pretty awesome cute girl but not when she mad..SHE LOOK SO SCARY, I almost want cry my heart out..

I told her I scare of scary human..T...T

But she got a very high tolerance, she can tolerate me a lot.. TRUST ME, seldom human can tolerate me.. I feel whoever can stand my behavior is either they are too angel or they don't know how to differentiate a real demon.. *Opps*~~

See my pretty darling, she not really good at selfie pose so her face all same LOL!! 

But she still look so sweet and angelic.. Awww!!

She show me around her campus, take me go eat and we chatted a lot of stuff..

It was really nice to get to see her, at least one of my event list is cancel off.. <3 font="">

Darling, one day I should make you addicted to selfie..I WILL U WAIT ME OK?  She confirm going to ignore me :(!! 

She always hurt my poor heart yet she still showering lot of love to me.. 

I will remember our first real meet up, you were behind me, message me "turn behind"..

That moment, I will always remember even one day we became stranger..Ok?? :')

OK, head back to my reality cruel world..I am dead die doom..GG..~~

Write at 04.10.2015 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 561 (Love toward my stuff?)

Maybe I found another world that I really felt comfortable about it, so I don't mind being so introvert and alone most of the times.

PS:Vampire teeth don't like me..I look so weird but in same time , I love it~

Today posted what?? Hrmmm..

Just focus on few stuff I love or I should make it my priority for now.

• ACCA.

ACCA is my priority..I don't want fail it nor I want to put it as my regret black dot in my life. Selfish enough to think like that?? No, cause there sometimes I really need to put all these more important than other.

I know people will said "You cannot think like that..Then like this, ditch all your friends and your friend will dislike you".

I am SERIOUSLY SAYING HERE..I AM NOT JUDGING ANYONE but I AM SERIOUSLY STATED:-

If you were my friend, you should understand what is important to me for now in the year and coming few year.

If you were my friend, please understand if I say "don't want to go out" is because I usually around the corner of my critic exam month..

If you were my friend, be patience with me, I know I already age of 20 but so what?? I still under my parent's shelter..What I have now is given by them. So please understand. 

Like I mentioned, I really not saying anyone but seriously sometimes, I really hope I can do my own stuff, had my own plan going on..

• My Family

My family, like I mentioned is super important than outsider..Ok deal with it, I love my family > outsider..

• My freaking few important group of friends

To my friends that I really appreciated, please please don't make me get stressed when I can't hang out with you all and when I having my critic exam month.

I really love you all and I said if I can, I will want to hang out too but wait when I sembreak..I will automatically come and find you all and be super annoying as well..

• Cosplay, Fujoshi, Nerd, Introvert Life

Like I stated I got my own world, I don't really like to go out and socialize with other human. I love to spend time on stuff I love to do alone. Maybe is my sickness, maybe is my phobia but sorry I am a selfish weirdo, I do care what people think of me but that only last for few day, or maybe one day then come back again to me.

You know, this call self hurt..I do "self hurt" for myself and only I can do for myself..Lalalaa~~

Till now then, the thought of posted what I really want is here..Just want to spam my dear blog, sorry for dumping you..Love you the most..~~

Write at 24.09.2015 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 560 ( August treat me sweet and nice..Thank)

Regarding all the memories that I have with you, 

Through my mind all the time, 

And I decided and determined that I have no regret choosing you..

My Mr Account..

This month having my first PT-1 exam and serious shit, I am scare like hell..=3=

I know myself having this weakness that I am not good at writing..*NO JOKE*..When come to account, all the english word is much more harder and more complicated than what I can feel..=(

So I really hope my PT-1 can done nicely..

Regarding also AMG at end of month, please everything turn out be normal and better?? 

Really hope I got big improvement...

Back to study..I just hope that I won't disappointed my family member..That all..

Congratxz to human that pass ACCA exam..*claps*~~~

Write at 01.08.2015 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 559 (Weak.Tired.Orgz)

"Sorry if I keep testing your love because I am afraid you will stop loving me one day"

Such an innocent look but seriously..I am just a disaster..Hoho~~

Just Tuesday and I feel myself already in hell for one month?? :( My happiness with my Boss Eng Hong no more liao..SO SAD!! REALITY IS SO CRUEL!! 

I become so quiet in my class..I am like so alone and lonely..Haih~~!!

So negative...

PS:I am just typing what I am saying..

I actually nothing to type but I just hope SEM 2, please treat me nice and sweet.. PLS PLS PLS!! =(

Tata~~

Write at 28.07.2015 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 558 (Complicated Feeling)

No picture because I am using Uni's Library and post..*pouts*

I feel myself so weird, I know I am not longer belong to you or wait..I and you doesn't have any contract agreement..

I just don't know how to be normal anymore toward to you..

Maybe the climax point is already there and then slowly slide down until I don't feel like putting you beside me..Let everything back to normal..

Sometimes when you "love" a person, maybe temporary letting go is one of the best choices..

Don't hold too tight, cause holding too tight will eventually make us more worst..

Don't hold too tight, cause holding too tight will make you hate me one day..

Don't hold too tight, cause holding too tight will make lost everything..

Well, I actually kinda happy that I don't feel anything weird inside my mind or my heart..
Maybe I really turn coldblooded de..So I eventually can't feel any feeling for anyone..*love feeling no more de* LOL!!

But my "hua zhi" toward to human , actor , actress , idols , my 2D character is still exist..Hahaa!!

Basically just want to say let everything be normal bah..I don't want to stress myself with the word "relationship"..

The curse inside me is getting more and more worst..

Taa-Daa..Should go home now or maybe simple shopping then go home??Hrmmm~~

PS:My mom tomorrow birthday..Can't wait to wish her soon.. My love..

Write at 21.07.2015 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 557 ( BOOKFEST 2015)

Thank my dear Ching Hui and Wen Tyng who accompany me to Bookfest..

Cause I keep on want to buy stationary but end up don't know buying what kind of stuff..*STARE*!

Well, since we all went kinda late so is expected go home also late..*pouts*!!

Let start the story~~

So Phoebe went to Tyng's house around 2pm while Tyng's sis and her friend is busy doing they make up for cosplay so Phoebe keep on annoyed Tyng until Hui come to her house and all of them were waiting for Charlie ( Tyng's boyfriend, my boss) to come and fetch them but unfortunately he seem stuck in traffic jam so around 2:30pm, Phoebe thebn decide fetch them all go to the nearby LRT Station..PS: Thank that Phoebe drive to Tyng's house..

Around 4pm only reach to KLCC and well, they dump Tyng's sis and her friend cause they main topic is cosplay while three of them is for shopping..*smirk smile*..The only thing Phoebe's regret is bringing her camera but din't use..*bang wall*!!

So start their journey inside the stationary hall..

Is a good thing that they focus on stationary hall instead of book hall..*yawn*!! 

Three of them having this struggle of buying things..Actually is two of them..*PHOEBE AND HUI*..=......=

But luckily when they buy, the thought of "is it a must" is there so eventually feel worth it..

Phoebe spend around Rm150++ just to buy don't know what things.. ORZ~~:(

So three of them having this short rest and then Tyng offered them sushi she made!! HOW SWEET CAN TYNG BE!! *doki doki*

See Tyng being such an angel.. Why Phoebe always surrounded by so many sweet friends.. Hoho!!

So after having this pre-dinner, they all decided to wait Charlie come over and then only back together..Phoebe then tell Tyng that she drag Hui to Kinokuniya to get something that she want cause Hui wanted to go there at the first place..

Went into the shop and found this book, Phoebe really hope she can buy but everything in chinese..=(

Nooo..SO SAD! EMO

Hopefully in future, she will get both book of herself so she can learn more sewing skills..Tee Hee

TOTORO!! Phoebe's favorites..So creepy smile yet so cute..OMG!! The combination is so perfect..

Show one of the last picture to sum all yesterday event..

Memory Bread.. 

Basically to accompany me when Phoebe have stress study..HAHA!!

Story end here..Tata~

If I can make you happy everyday, I will do it cause your happiness is my priority..

#plovec

btw, the ballon belong to my dear Hui~~ Love her max..

PS: I look like a hamster..Oh no~!

Write at 20.07.2015 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 556 ( C.U.R.S.E)

Behind a simple smile, is just a complicated weirdo who thinking a lot of stuff every minute..

So this year raya holiday, I din't really done any productive stuff which I plan to do..*bang wall*

Mostly today need to do , if not I won't have any time to do it..

Sem 2 getting more and more busy as well more challenging plus with my this brain who don't even like to memorize also have to force myself to do it..*DIE DIE ALSO NOT GIVING UP*

Next thing, please please everything can be peaceful and harmony..

I don't want to lose anything nor anyone..I am tired of it..

I am tired of how people think I am just a girl who taking advantage of it..

I am tired of how people think I only want to close to people who give me benefits only..

I am strictly saying don't treat me too good, cause I can't or never will give you my 100% of attention..

I only can say I am a selfish girl who like to do things that make me happy..I don't show my attention through action nor through word but eventually I will show it..Not now, not later but maybe in future..

Well, if like that I rather don't take any benefits from you all..I am tired..I can't stand of it..I can't hold all these tension..

The word "love" is too strong..Is strong until I am scare of it..

If like that, why not treat me like normal person..No need give me too much..I got too much already..I don't know how to repay all these "love"..I don't even want to face all the moody/anger/jealousy behavior..

It only make me avoid or just ignore..

I admit I want attention but not until that level..Serious..No joke..Maybe is my curse..

I just can't have a happiness for a long period, there always have a challenges waiting for me..Obstacle trying to pull me down and such on..

I just want to release all the moody-ness in here..

Nothing much..

I am not implying anyone..

Just treat these day I have lot and lot of weird and nightmare dream...*bang wall*

This is me..A coldblooded human that have this small "sun" inside her..

Tata..~~ 

Need sleep..~~ *yawn*

Write at 18-07-2015 by -VoN S@N-