Chapter 289(Dream..Weird dream..Haha)

Arghh..I have a weird dream..Not a bad or not a good dream..Is a totally weird dream that make me thing a lot..

Let start the story of my dream..=/..Super weird..

I was at my class doing homework than when I going back doing something..
I feel like someone is controlling over my body..
I rush to the window and is really dangerous but than I stop myself..
I don't know how to describe but later that I cry out loud telling myself that I scare my life will just doomed..
All my friends asked me what happen..I said to them "later we go out only tell"..=/
So so than when back time..I was at Wen Tyng's bus with her sister and some student..
I told her that I want to the shopping mall..=/
But the bus like ignore what I said and pass by it..
Than I told Wen Tyng.."OH NO"..
Wen Tyng tell me that let go a place than later let taxi to drive us there later since she said got thing to do..
And we went to a house??
Wen Tyng straight went into a room and fall asleep while her sister go change a cloth to a dress??I guess..
Than this later got a guy came out a sudden looking at me and said "Wear dress"..
His name is something "Er Kang"??I don't know how I get the name but his look is like something I really will adore that person look..Haha..
But I don't know why I just follow his word and I thought about Wen Tyng and give her a dress to wear but she ignore me??=o=
And out sudden..I thinking is late to go shopping mall so I sms my friend about I not going but with Wen Tyng..=X
Than I saw this guy "Er Kang" sitting there alone..
So I go talk to him..He really look mysterious and something that make me wanna talk to him is just so weird..He body is like got "burn" or don't know what..
He told me that this house is actually not free or what or is not exist??
Just wonder why we(Me, Wen Tyng and her sis) can be here..
So I told him is "Wen Tyng take me here"...And I told him about the incident I got at class..
He like "O.oo"...
I never say I love or what to this guy just I thinking he mystery and I feel got some secret about him that make me so wanna know him..
But than all I know is just a dream..=/

Poof..
I woke up..
This dream make me think a lot..Totally a lot..
I not thinking something good or bad but please don't let the bad thing happen..DX
I don't know why this "guy" in my dream is telling me that I going meet this guy but different name..
We gonna be a friend??XD

Hahaha..
Is just a dream..
Think less..XD

All the best to my bro and his kawan-kawan..^o^

Write at 23.11.2010 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 288(18.11.2010..Happy day..XD)

That day is like a journey again to me..=D
I went to Xue Yi's house cause she promise will go out with me..Weeeeee~~XD
With her brother as well..Tee Hee~~

So we went to where play??Go MEEPLES~~!!!Haha
We play a lot of game..>o<..But since is three people so we cannot really play a lot of strategy game..D= We end up playing all the funny game..Tee Hee~~XD I only capture few pic of the games we play..One is "PANIC TOWER"..Is like UNO TOWER but is just slightly different..XD

Xue Yi's brother..Hehe..So cute..XD~~

Haha..Xue Yi's bro is pro..XD~~

The view of top..=D

Xue Li..Lose the game..XD~~

The token..Get three of it..Lose the game..=D

Fun but easy get boring..XD

Me with the loser token..Haha~~

His bro is pro at this game..=D

Our card..XD

FAST FOODDDDDDDDDDDD~~~~~~~~~~~~Rawwss

Xue Yi with the burger..XD

Cloud 9~~Winner is Xue Yi..Ahahaa...

Later that we go Asia Cafe makan makan..After makan Xue Yi noisy want play snooker..Ookay..
So I teman her go bah..XD~~With her bro..Tee Hee~~

Teaching his bro how to play..Haha~~~

Cute little Xue Yi..OMG..I love her..Haha

Around 6-7pm~~Raining..We went to Subang Parade..Force Xue Yi to let me eat ROTI BOY..Yuummm~~~One of my fav bread..Tee Hee..

Than Khairi fetch us home..Sorry Khairi..Really feel so trouble..=/

Have a totally fun day with Xue Yi..
XUE YI~~!!I want play "NUNS OF THE RUN"~~!!!Hehe~~

Write at 19.21.2010 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 287(Haixx..I no mood~~~!!!)

Haixx..Hrmm

I wish you really will care me but at the end is just my dream..=/
Sorry..

Ying..
Maybe you trying to tell me that she care me, care me or she care everyone but I think you know who really care now??..You know you actually putting salt to my scar??
Sorry..I doesn't mean to say such a word..
Is just sometimes life is like that..
I get jealous easily..You not the first day know me..=/

Sorry..
I feel so sad..=/
Somehow..
Sorry..No mood..

Bye~~

Write at 12.11.2010 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 286(Yi Hui, I know you the best..=D)

Sorry..Yi Hui..I mistake you too much..=/
Haha~~

And to you again..=.=...
What wrong with my horoscope??=.=
And please don't say I playgirl or what..OKAY!!~~
So what my horoscope saying that playgirl/playboy stuff..Bullshit..
My horoscope just want a bit of freedom and don't lock all her freedom..That it..
If you said like that..Is unfair for me lor..
I not a playgirl..!!Kay..I got my own reason why I doing that decision..I don't mind people asking me why I do that decision..Kay??
If you think I am playgirl than I think I still better than you lor..
As long I still blame everything, every faults to myself..
Is you are the one who make me angry only I will tell out lo!!

And one more thing..
Horoscope is just for people to think who they are..
To me..I trust horoscope half and my life half..
Why??
Cause I think everyone should have a unique attitude..
I not being protect that my horoscope is not that and this..
I do admit sometimes I act a bit flirty and playboy style but is only to my friends(girl)..
Don't know how to say la..
I still searching for my truth self..

I just hate people simply say me..That it..
I just say sorry to you for I saying you a lot bad thing..Sorry..
You make me first..=PP~~

Write at 09.11.2010 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 285(Haixx..=.=)

Stupid coward brainless..=.=
Why you need to block me..
Why need so scare to let me see what you write??
I feel weird la..

What I mean..All my friends they all care about me..
They all don't want me keep everything myself..
They know I don't really dare to post at facebook..
They know that I rather post at blog or tell a friends..
That all...
So what my friend post at facebook..
Do you need to admit is you?
Why you so shoik sendiri and think is you le??
Stupid..
If someone that I dislike post this kind of this thing..I will just ignore it and act as nothing although I know that me..
Although I frustrated that what you write to Yi Hui that time..
So I just quietly and write at my blog..
I just keep to myself and told my really close friend..
I never take a speaker to tell all world..

Kay..
Haixx..
Bye bye GIRLS..Hello GAAGOO KIDS..Haha..
Although salary low but I still have to keep a lot of money..So so??
Dad give me pocket money must keep..^.^
Gambateh Von San..^^

A lot of person is caring about me..I so happy..
First is Elise, Yi Hui, May, Xue Yi, Ying, Katrina, Harris, Hua Hoa, Wen Tyng, Zhen Jian and many more..=D
I so happy..
And friend like I never tell them the story like Kevin and blah blah..Thank a lot..
This is all the person who know my story..Haha
Feel like telling my third daddy "DAVID" for Friday..I suka him a lot..He funny and he care me..Haha..^.^..
I don't know why..Tell people that older my story is better cause they won't gossip and go listen and forget about it..Huhu~~XD


I love you a lot..
Haha..I becoming les??
Lolxx..I need to do well..^O^..Good Luck PHOEBE TAN VON SAN~~

Write at 08.11.2010 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 284(Happy..Happy..!!!)

Want cry now..I feel so happy..
I thought really no one will care me..
I really thought a lot..
I really have a bad mood for this week..
I don't know how..
Everything worst is like just come to me for this week..
I don't know how to handle it..

All I know is cry cry cry..
Every night cry and cry..
All the feeling have been mixed up..
Feel so weird..
Doesn't know what going to happen on me..I thought a lot of people will hate me and feel I such a a worst..
But now I glad..
Totally glad..

I don't know la..Sometimes life is like that..
Sometimes I tend to think so much..
What also think..
But only blog understand..
Really..

I really feel so lost on last week..I scare this and that..
I just don't know how to make myself feel better but now okay..Really okay a lot..=D
I really think that I think too much..
Life is like that..Like a waves..

I just want a rest and I really don't mind telling all my friends what I really jealous about..
Maybe after saying it..I can go for mine real real friend that I totally care..
Maybe that time..I wouldn't care about her anymore..
That better??
Right??^O^..

I saying to ONG XUE YI..
Ya..I jealousing you care she more than me..
But what to do??
She your real jie..=D
Go go sayang her bah..
Cause I know you won't like me so..Is okay..=D
Bye Bye..

I break the promise..
Sorry..
If you really know what promise I mean..=D

Write at 08.11.2010 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 283(Don't touch my "wound" when is never fully recover..Kay?!!)

Sorry..
If I being such a what to you..=.=

If you know I am jealous than don't ask me "why" la..=.=

Don't make me sad and cry anymore kay..
I don't want you touch my wound kay!!!

Sorry..If I being like a what to you..Than sorry..
I am a sensitive girl..
Sorry..=.=

Write at 07.11.2010 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 282(I think is really "you" understand me..)

Sorry bloggie..
I think is really you are the one I can tell and post out..=/
I no mood..
Sorry...

I know you are caring for me but but...
Sorry..
You the the phrase "the more you care the more I get the pain"..
Doesn't mean I don't let you care me but but let me feel better first..Kay??

Tonight must beg mommy to go Summit..Bluekxz..Want to buy some clothes at there..
Try my best..=/

Write at 11.06.2010 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 281(What happen to me again?!)

I such a worst...I don't know how to say out my feeling so I put everything put at my blog??
What happen to me??
Please..I have to be okay..Must okay..T.T

Maybe I will being so mean and so cold to you is because I really don't know how to show that I really caring for you..=/
Maybe because you are the youngest so I really want to love you but...
I know you won't noticed it..Right??

Like remember you and Ying at my house..When Ying ask you about who the 2nd person you care the most..
I see through your eyes..You care Ying more but you just don't want hurt me..Right??
And you know what..I rather you tell me that you care Ying more than you care me cause I don't like to guess and than I know it myself..
Is a bit pain to me..Sorry..If I being like a baby kid..
And I not a stupid girl..I know you really care May and Ying a lot..

For some reason I know you will care Ying more than me is few facts...

1. You went hyper when Ying call you "mui"..
2. You will take photo with Ying without forcing but.............
3. You will automatic care Ying without telling but.............

Just something bothering me..
Maybe someone will see this blog..And I sorry to this person..I a selfish girl..I really don't know who I can tell beside my blog..
And if can..To the person..Can you also ignore what I typing right now..Can you just read and forget it..

Maybe because of this..I really really don't want you to care me so much..
Is hurt me..
Maybe you don't know maybe you don't care..
But I care..=/
Maybe I should treat you more cold and mean feeling so that I know you won't ever want to care me so much..
So that I can give myself bunch of reason that why you will care her in 2nd but not me..=/

Von..
Just face it..Kay??
Everything will be alright..
Let everything be normal after her birthday...Can already..Ookay..=D

Write at 06.11.2010 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 280(Wake up from the dream~~)

Story time??XD

A girl name Phoebe who dreaming for so long..
She trusted this person too long until one day her alarm wake her up..
She knew that dream and real life is different but she really can't face the truth..
Maybe is time for she to wake up and face the truth..
Maybe by saying is very easy..But is very pain inside her heart..
Haixx..


Now now now...
I still in the mist..I don't know how to say..
I may be look normal to all my friends..Acting nothing happen but everytimes I will think a lot..
I just don't know who to share my problem..=/
Sometimes I rather keep myself shut and settle..

Haixx..=.=
Stop thinking bad thing..
It will make myself sick..
So now I keep focusing my story
Haha..
I know I always fail to make one complete but this time the story is fun cause I trying make mystery+romantic+fun..=D..
I love you a lot LOO SOOK MAY!!!XD~~

I now thinking how to celebrate Xue Yi's party..Weee~~All idea come up to my brain..Please..=D
Just try to avoid avoid all the negative feeling..

I really can't stand backstab person..I don't mind people gossip about me but please la don't backstab me..
Well...To me backstab is like you really can two person become enemy..
I don't mind my friends dislike me for some attitude cause we are not perfect..^^..

Next thing is maybe I should really avoid to talk to Kevin..=/
Seem something happen..What thing??
I don't really feel like telling..Can??
I don't want to make people hate me..=X

What about the Jia Yong??
That one owe me sweet so must keep kacau until I get sweet..Muahaha..
Hehe~

I need you so much now..
I getting tired of everything..@.@

Write at 05.11.2010 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 279(I should be smart a bit..=.=)

Daddy angry me whole day never care shop..=.=
Ishh..Normally day I got take care lo..
Just give me one day rest also can't mah..

Why always blame on me..
Why sis and bro no need..
Bro got study a bit but play hon a lot la..Ishh..Really want to say out to dad but suan..
I hate it..

Sis..
Whole day go out..
Tired than no need care shop..

Everything is me me me...
I want play also can't mah..
Why dad only can care for sis and bro but not me le..

So why I can't stay my room close and chit-chat with my friends for long long time..
Arghh..Daddy pilih kasih..No mood now..

Write at 04.11.2010 by -VoN S@N

Chapter 278(Sports day arr.,@@)

Today early morning jogging with May and her mom..I so dizzy..
@o@..
After jogging go yam cha with her mom..
I don't want go cause never bring money out..If got I don't mind de..Too bad too bad..
But terpaksa from May..Wuuu~~~

So at there damn pai seh wei..
Haixx..
I go order "cold tea" but le aunty and May stop me..Wuuuu~~
Tell me order "kopi something"..Terpaksa la..=/
After this and that and blah blah..

Go home at 11am like that...I still dizzy..Damn..Don't like this feeling..
So so so so so so...Can skip to Suriamas with May and Xue Yi??=D

Suriamas..
Badminton..I suck at it..Meeps..=/
Than I delete something at May's phone..Just a bad memory..Hehe~~XD

Swimming section
The thing I love the most..I really love swimming..
For some reason..Haha..
If swimming won't make me look dark..I will happy lo but haix is impossible..XD
Although swimming always make me super tired but is fun..XD
Is the water in the pool also clean than perfect lo..

Later swimming go for SAUNA..Weee~~
So long never do SAUNA..XD


Anyways..Is nice and fun but is tiring..=/
I going to forget you..^^..Thank all the friends that so so support me..I feel so happy..Haha..

Write at 04.11.2010 by -VoN S@N

Chapter 277(I not a fool..Kay??==).

Like I said..I not a fool..
I not a robot that let you use..
I damn believe you for the time being but what have you give me??
You give me is bunch of fake story..All fake..=.=!!!

Grrr..TT~~
And to this person..I freaking hate you now..Want make me in trouble la??
You think you are what??
You just human..
Don't over my limit..
I meant what I said..

Elise said correct..Mostly guy are jerk..=X
But not man..Man is always so nice..Haha..I mean some..XD~~
Well..I just want to tell I not a fool..To whoever who want make me in danger go ahead..
I might sad and cry but I will know your truth personality..
I never say who wrong who right but I can say is everybody got wrong but don't try put all blame to me..I mean whoever is it..

For some reason I don't know why..I love Xue Yi..Haha..XD~~
Rawss..
Mind so blurrr wei..I need some rest..=/
I miss Elise somehow..

Hui Yen..
Pls pls telling me that you never do all these but facts you did..=X
Haixx..
I no mood...

For the person also..
Wen Tyng say correct, you are not a good person..
And you change a lot..JERK..=X

Write at 02.11.2010 by -VoN S@N-