Chapter 385(Stupid..=X)

Hey my dear bloggie..I posting my shoik sendiri photo with new lens fairy purple.Hehe...Cool right my pic..The confident eyes but innocent look..:P

Okok..
To you..
I angry and cry is because now I know what kind of people you are..
Worst than a jerk..=)

Sorry to all my friends..I make you all worried me too much..I promise..
I promise I will okay kay?=)
I miss you a lot my dear blogg..

Arghh..I need work..I need money to buy present..sob sob~~
Daddyyy..I <3 you..Hahaa..I need money for this,that ,blah blah and thattt..Hahaa

Haha..I love to chiong k at neway now..Muackxxx..
Neway is better a lot compare to Amp square..Tee Heee..

Right now I can't play SDO..
Waiting daddy fix for me..Sobs sobb..
Daddd~~~~>
Dad seem ignore me..Finee..

Haixx..
I wish my blog a lot people can know but hor..I also don't want le..Huhu~~Tak tau why..
But I know I just a boring people..:)

Okok..So without SDO..
Manga is my favourite during holidayyy..=3
I read few manga these day and is talk about love..
Few is talk about if you and your friends love a same guy..What would you do..
Well..If me..I will let go cause I can't let go frienship..
But I do heard people tell me to be more selfish..
Sighhh..
Who can tell me what to do if this stuff happen..
But hor I think won't happen la..Tee Heee~~
Arghhh..
Manga Manga Mangaaa...:)

Shit..Friends birthday coming..Better be prepared myself with stuff like cake,present and so so on..
Hahaa~~

I want camwhoreeeee...:)
I want go to Neway...
I want to have a story of dream..
Blog, I love you..Wait me update kay..Muackxx

Write at 29.05.2011 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 384(Feel so neutral for all the stuff de??)

Sigh..Exam..Sienxzz..:(..Bye~~

After so many thing..I feel my blog can make a drama out of it..Everyday is showing different storyy~~
But the moral is keep telling myself I will have another better and nice day cause this is life..:)
(Y)..I proud of myself..Stop saying bad about people lol..Just say when the fellow make me..><..
Is consider better and I keep tell myself no no no stabbed back to my close friends..
Whoever think I got stabbed back then think cause your mind not mine..
Still same..I will still dislike some attitude like you all dislike mine..Weeee~~!!
This called life..So must everyday stay happy and in positive thinking..(Y)~!!

Ish ish..GOD, please pray to all my close friends and friends and a lot of people..Please the acidman can stay away from them..=/
Please the acidman can faster get caught by police or the acidman can just die..O.O!!!
Just feel scaryy..:(
Wasn't in a good mood..
Sigh sigh..
I need restt..Huhu~~
Kla..Tonight is account..Account..><..
Arghhh..:(
Byeee~~

Blog,I love you..Hehe~~
Cause to me don't judge one person by it cover..XD!!
I never say bad you or do bad you or what..If you really understand me..Then stop complain about me..Weee..~~

And I still in my own thinking..I will never mean never..Wakakaka~~~Rawsss..
Unless really something make me change my decision or not what also can't change..

Heheee!!!Blogg..I will make sure holiday I will tell you all my storyyy~~My life and so so on..Stay tune..^_^~~

Write at 24.05.2011 -VoN S@N-

Chapter 383(Stop thinking..=( )

So I camwhore..And I find this pic is suit it..=(

Wasn't really have a nice mood but can't find people to talk really..Everyone got their own problem..Haixx~~

Now I just hope my friends can be alright..Especially Yi Han..=/
I don't really like him when he no mood..Is like a different person but is ok..><..He still my best heng dai..:(
Although we not so close..T..T!!

Ya..I am sensitive..Thank wor..I admit..:(
I don' really feel happy for these two week..><..
Is ok..Friend that feel I ignoring you all..
I will say sorry..Cause I just not in a right mood...=/

Haixx~~
I love you a lot..Serious..My all close friends..Like I mention..I don't know how to tell but no matter how..You all are the best..:)
Kay..I tumblr all my sad+happy+confuse feeling out..Should be better..><

Muackxzz blogg..I love you..:)!!

Write at 22.05.2011

Chapter 382( If people think I am strong, then I have to be..=D)

Sorry my bloggie..
I really abandon you..:(
You won't hate me right..I really love you a lot my dear bloggie..Cause I know you are the one who keep me strong all the time..
So for this..I want tell my dear blog my story during exam week..Huhu~~Although exam haven't over but still..><~~

So first week of exam got what subject arr..@@
Is bm,sej and all kind of not so like subject..
Due exam..I keep do revision at night which I lazy to do on afternoon..:(..
Wasn't have a good mood every morning..
At my friends..Some serious study, some play play..But haixx..=/
Just not in a good mood..

Well, exam not really well in BM and some subject..I feel like I screwed it badly..:(..
Damn sad..I want to find a BM tuition but I know is late and I can't find..So suan..
Must study..Must study..
Hrmmm..

Second week of exam..
Is like haix..Normal lu..Just let everything go by normal..=)
Ok..
So exam week make me become super blurr, super moody and so so on..><..

Haixx..
And yes..My topic is if people think I am strong then I have to be one..Okay..^_^
I have to proof to them..
If I cry..I will cry silently..No more calling people asking them to help me..I must try..I cannot keep cling on my friends..
They got their own life..I cannot let them keep involves my stupid problem right..=/

Sighh..
So must be happy so no need people to worried me so much..Okayy..Be strong..Don't act..=)
Arghh...
Account and Addmath..I will make sure I won't screwed you both subject..Muackxx..Tee Hee..
Blog, love you..=)

Hehe..Sorry if I make ppl feel I am such a hypocrite people but I can tell you I am not...I just don't know how to express my feeling out..
If you think I like that..Then think..Cause I will feel disappointed cause you never ever want to understand me..XD!!
Haha..Although I really like to keep myself quiet cause I have to..=(
Don't want you all to worry me..Meepss~~

Kla..=)

Write at 21.05.2011 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 381(Call me selfish or what..I don't care..)

I really don't care..D=
I really fed up for myself..
How can I not trust her..
I really don't know..D=
I hate ittt..
Acting like macam yes..
And I know today I really make her angry de..
But I really can't bear to lost friends that super close so is better to ignore..Right..:)

Give me some time kay..=/
I don't want to be left out again..
After the incident again..I use too much too much of time to recover..
This time I not sure how much I need to use cause we both are same classs..
And you just sitting beside beside me after exam..D=
Guess holiday and the everything will make me feel better..

Or wait bah..
Cause I really really love her...=/
Let me merajuk these day can..
Sorry and I really love you..Hehe

Eeee...I love my account tuition..
Is a place where I can laugh like crazy..
Sorryy..Teacherr..XD
I will be a little good girl if I can..I promise..Kay..

And really thank to people that beside me that keep me cheering these day..:)
I love you all..
Muackxzz

And I like you a lot Yi Hui..=3

Write at 12.05.2011 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 380(Is to hard for me to do that..D=)

Sighh..
My eyes gonna pop out soon..D=
I feel tired but something just don't let me go sleep..D=
I hate the feeling...
Yesterday I tell a person what I really feel..
And I seriously tell that I scare..
I scare a lot of stuff..
I act strong is just don't want people see but my shield is getting broke up..
I need time to build it..D=
Sighhh.

Haixx..
I better focus my exam..
I can't disappointed my family..Right??:)
And thank a lot for people that care me..
I really appreciate it..Serious..
Although sometimes I act cool cool,emo and like md you all but actually I really care you all..
I just don't know really how to express the feeling..
Forgive me kay?T.T!!!
And if really I being cool or what just give me some time or try talk to me..I will tell you automatically..
Maybe people will say I so so stupid but I just want a simple life..:)
Not life like "宮心計"..
I want a simple friendship and so so onn..=3

Awww..So today finish my BM first exam..Sighh..I feel like I screw all my paper..D=
Hope Pn Wee can see my effort of doing it..>.<..
Tonight gambatehh SEJARAH..Rawssss..:)
Thank for people that love me and careee mee..Hehe..
I being so nerd these day..:)
Always clip my fringe on top my head..Huhu..I don't want have pimplesss..
So terpaksaa..Ngekkk
And I still mommy's cute daughter..Haha..
Ok..I really need to bath,eat and go sleep and later go tuition..

Huhu~~SUN...Can you stop being so angryy..D=
I getting die soon cause of you..T.T

Write at 10.05.11 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 379(Happy Mother Day and so on..X3)

Mommyy I loveee you..:)
Super super lovee you..
I know I not a very good daughter to you if compare with other..And I admit..T.T
Sorry Mom but no matter how I love you mommyyyy..♥♥♥

Ok..So I got a dream to post in my dear bloggie or I want tell my cute bloggie..Is like a sweet love sad story??Awww..I don't know how to say is just a dream that I had..=/

Is all started like this..
So the story let be Mr X and Miss V..Lol..Is like a very stupid story..Haha..
So so so so..
Hrmm..Errr..Okok..
So this Mr X really really love Miss V but Miss V don't want to couple first or can say Miss V don't even got any feel for Mr X..
So one day Mr X and Miss V went out and go sit on the bus..
The bus very quiet only Mr X and Miss V..Wait..Mr X are with someone..And Miss V was sitting at the back of Mr X while Mr X sit with another person..
Awhile the bus stop..And the bus driver said "go down..go down please"..
Then the aunty sitting beside Mr X say "who going down.."..And Miss V just quiet and listen to the bus driver say "the guy beside you~~"..
Continue the aunty say "who beside me..=.="..Then Miss V was shock a bit cause she know the exist of Mr X but she remain quiet..And that time Mr X was sleeping so the bus driver just continue drive as it thought that he illusion after hearing the aunty said so he keep quiet..

After Mr X and Miss V went out the bus..Miss V look at Mr X and remember something..Is like a flashback stuff..Is like a story of telling Mr X already past away last time and now he like got don't know how many month of time to with Miss V..
And only Miss V and some people can see Mr X..

So I think I just skip main point..Can?
Then what I know is Miss V try to couple and love Mr X while don't let Mr X know that Miss V know everything..
One day Miss V cry out suddenly and Mr X ask her why but Miss V just keep crying because she know that Mr X past away is cause of her..Is cause of her selfishness only Mr X past away and now she struggle with Mr X that she don't want Mr X go away anymore from her life but Mr X is a spirit/ghost..D=

And then I woke up..
That dream make me think a lot..Sighhh
But the moral of the story is appreciate the guy you love..Don't make him wait too long..You wouldn't know what will happen in future..:)

Ok..So today was a bit tired day for me again due tuition..Lol..@@..
Sighhhh..I miss mommyy a lot..And I want my energyyyy..
And one more thing..I don't know what happen to my left hand..Keep on paralyzed..Make me like a stupid people only..Sighhh...
Okok..I should go study later..Arghhh..D=
Hope I won't end up go sleep or dozing..T.T

Write at 08.05.2011 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 378(Busy Routine~~)

Eeee..I got a busy routine for this weeekk....
Everyday feel damn tired..
Want to do some revision..Do not more than 5 question I feel super sleepy de..T.T
Arghhh..D=..
I wish I can be a super girl that won't always sleep..I can use the time to do homework or revision...

Skip to today Kancil's Tuition..
Can I say is just a moment I can with my darling?:)
Haha..
Have a quite nice day with my darling..
Enjoy life and play arounddd..=)
Even do some revision at MCD with no buying food..LOL~~!!
Are we smart..Lol
Kla..Really feel enjoyy..
Thx darling make me feel so happy..
I suddenly think a lot of happy stuff..
But I know I should forget all the sad stuff kay..

Haha..
I love today but in same time I hate it also..
No reason..Just feel sad about it..
Sometimes I wish everything can shut down like a computer..
Can delete some memory..Haixxx..

Write at 07.05.11 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 377(Stop it stop it..D=)

Feel like gonna sick soon if I everyday have my life like that..Ishh
Should make myself feel better very soon..~~
Meeepss!!!
Feel moody for a lot of stuff but no matter how I must be strong for it..
Ook..

Everything seem normal but what really happen is another story..D=
Gasp gasp..I must tomorrow give back the umbrella to Louis..=)
Hehe..I will go pyramid awhile or just give back then come back home..Am I smart..Ok..Not so but no choiceee..:)
I think this is the better way to choose if compare to other..Huhu~~SO SO sorry to Louis...D=
Exam next week is here and I still so lazy and blogging..
Arghh..My headache..D=
Saddd..I hate ittt!!!Meeeppp!!><...

Hope everything will eventually be good..Muackxxx..I love you a lot blogg..Sorry so long never care you but I really feel sick and not really in a nice mood..@~@~!!
And just now I saw you got a good relationship..Feel so happy somehowww..:)
Finally some of my burden worried can take off..Huhu~~@.@..

Meeepss..
Good luck to Adila with her protokol..=)

And my darling,etc etc..Hehe..
Gonna do homework..Feel so dizzyyy~~@.@

Write at 05.05.2011 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 376(My horoscope..Damn true..)

❤ 射手座 ❤ (请大家耐心看完哦 ^^)
　　
　　
　　射手女生可能永远也不会知道自己想要的是什么，但是

她一直都很清楚，她不想要的是什么。
　　
　　她总喜欢做幕后的看客，冷冷地，静静地看着一切，在她眼里，一切都在她的意料之中，她并不觉得有什么是新奇的，如果她表现得新奇，那是因为她觉得应该这样做。她像一个看戏的人，永远置身事外。
　　
　　你不要责怪她冷漠，这是她保护自己的唯一方式。她像一只刺猬，随时竖起自己身上的刺，但她的刺不会伤人，她只是用来武装自己。
　　
　　她不敢要太多的爱，她怕享受完爱之后，剩下的只是加倍的痛。所以当别人对她过度宠爱时，她不但不会欣喜，反而会惊惧地逃走，她不知道怎样回报别人对她的爱，如果你得到她的喜爱，那是因为她已经知道如何面对，如何回报了。
　　
　　她追求那种君子之交淡如水的境界。
　　
　　她懂得爱人，但她不习惯爱人，她知道爱往往伴随着恨，而恨，是太沉重的伤痛，也是太容易让人疲倦的感情。她不想痛，也就懒得去恨，于是，为了防范恨与痛的到来，她只好选择不爱，即使爱，也是淡淡的，冷冷的。别怪她，她是真的不知道如何专注。
　　
　　她有时也很虚伪。不要指责她，她之所以选择虚伪，那是你勉强她做她不愿做但又拒绝不了的事，她不习惯承诺，也不懂得拒绝，她最擅长的是难为自己。她不想你难过，只好令自己难过。
　　
　　她总是固执地认为自己有超乎寻常的承受力，她将自己想得太坚强，而把别人想得太脆弱。她老是担心自己的行为会让别人受到伤害。她不知道，受伤的其实是自己。只是她不知道如何表现出来，她迷糊得像别人所认为的那样，将自己当成一个百毒不侵的人。
　　
　　
　　别以为她很洒脱，很多时候，她其实是放不下的-——她比任何人都要敏感，都要细腻，但她不会让你知道，她明白，即使你知道了，也是无济于事。她的心是把握不住的风，她渴望像风一样单纯而自由。
　　
　　她不是不想平静，她只是找不到平静的理由，她一生都无法明确自己在人世要扮演的角色，她只有不停地寻求，寻求自己最终的目的。
　　
　　如果她找到了，她会毫不犹豫地停下来，从此放弃心灵的漂泊。很遗憾，她永远也不会满足，她的追求永不停止。她的心再累，无法逼迫自己放弃梦想，梦想是她唯一的支撑点。
　　
　　千万别让她失望。因为她学不会原谅，她非常渴求完美，虽然她知道世间没有绝对的完美，但，她有绝对追求完美的执着。你若令她失望，她会不可挽回地离开，即使她的心在滴血，即使痛楚重得要压垮她的生命，她也绝不回头。
　　
　　
　　那个时候，你在她脸上所看到的，是让人寒心的决绝。即使她还在你的身边，她的心也早就离你十万八千里，你看不到她的恨，但是你会感受到比恨还让人痛苦的冷淡。她的离开是心灵的离开。
　　
　　她可以在前半分钟对你好得让你受宠若惊，也可以在后半钟冷漠得让你不可接受。不要问她为什么这样善变，她也不知道。当你看到她在疯狂地快乐或悲伤时，千万不要迷惑，不管她看起来是多么的疯狂，她内心其实是冷静的，她比你们任何一个旁观者更知道如何处理快乐与悲伤，她只是习惯-——也可以说是喜欢将一切都变得疯狂。
　　
　　因为她觉得这是义务，也是权利，她是制造气氛的能手，她的一句俏皮话会让一切轻快起来，但她的一声叹息又会将一切都弄得很沉重。她总是不由自主地交错操纵着快乐与忧郁.
　　
　　她并不如你们看到的那么快乐，同样，也不如你们看到的那么忧伤，只是，她忧郁时，喜欢带上快乐的面具，而当她快乐时，忧郁又不肯轻易放过她。
　　
　　在她的世界里，盛着的不是快乐的源泉，而是她不愿在人前滴下的泪水。你看到的她，笑起来像一个孩子，你有时会认为她天真得像是童话里走出来的天使。但是，你若有心，你会看到她沉静时脸上挥之不去的忧伤，还有她的眼底，竟那么凝重地积压着一种看破红尘的味道。她只有在午夜无人的时候，才会完全地释放自己。她不会在众目睽睽之下表露她的无助，她的彷徨，她的沧桑。
　　
　　她心里的，是永远流不尽的泪。你所看到的坚强，只是她在竭力掩饰的脆弱。

Special post at 03.05.2011~~~

Chapter 375(The day I be photographer for an event~~)

Today become a photographer event for daddy's sukaneka..XD!!!
Haha..Was a tired day for me..Kekeke..:)
And I think I will steal some photo that I took using daddy's dslr camera..Eeeee..XD!!

Haha..I know is very tiring to be one..But I enjoy the moment..XD!!
And I say something is true that I know some people at there..Lol..
So I wonder people join Photography club is it want be popular..I not sure..;)

All I know I was enjoy and then back house use computer not more than hour and went to sleep due too tired..><..

After wake up continue use computer..:)
Okk..

I should skip to something which make me pissed off..!!
Thank to them a lot wei..X3
So that guy really make me pissed off..Over de over de...=D

Haha..And yesterday chat with Kevin..
And he tell me that he photography club all good girl good boy..Lol..Perasan jeee!!XD!!
Kla..Memang good if compare to sidang reaksi ppl..=)
Haha..So is my mistake of simply think..Paisehh!!

><...End here..Hehe~~

Write at 01.05.2011 by -VoN S@N-