Chapter 503 (Smile cause it happen not cause it over..Tee Hee)

I know is hard to see my doodles??Haha

I was planning to write down my wishlist but end up..I keep on draw and keep on write nonsense..

You saw the two skeleton figure drawing..Ya..I always love the sharp side hairstyle and that is me..Sometimes I feel if I live in ancient kingdom, I will be like this..I am the princess girl who is so lady-like..*konon* Haha

And if I am modern..nah I am modern kid, wearing my t-shirt and usual pant with my daily hairstyle..Tee Hee

The mood of drawing is here but the mood of study??Hrmmm..Haixz..Terrible..TT!!

I don't know why I said this..Smile cause it happen but not cause it over..I mean I shouldn't cry over the split milk so I must stay strong and be positive that all these thing is mean a big story in my life..I can't change back the past nor I can mend back the positive cause forcing you wasn't a thing I like to do..Can't deny there got few stuff I still want to do cause you once my very important friend..Actually now also yes but I can't force you to treat me like I am your important friend right??No force..*feel like a stock*..

I always feel myself like a stock de la..=_=..Ahdoi!~~That why I must enjoy everyday cause I cannot know tomorrow am I still here or not..*pouts*

Confidence smile looking me..LOL..Oh well oh well..~~

Need to take care my face like kao kao..TT!!

Geezzz..:(

My knee is in pain..All my exercise have to hold cause I really got no energy to walk few more steps..=/..Or maybe do upper part??><..Hrmm..*will think about it*

Please my dear knee, faster recover kay..Walking with a pain knee is killing me..Me hate it..Haixz..

Tomorrow first day of work..Better sleep early, prepared stuff early and so so on..Tee Hee..

Wish myself have a wonderful March all along way..:)..I can't wait my biggest plan that is persuade my parent about ACCA..X3

Write at 28.02.2014 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 502 (Recover?Sick?Ok?Not ok?)

Pic on February..I look like a foreigner that not in Malaysia and travel around taking picture, looking stuff and enjoy life that most people thinking too..I got a few dream that I wanted to archive..I think I should start doing my wishlist soon hope is soon..*headache*

Depression sickness..I once have it but that time I am nobody..I just a small human that only have few super close friends..I don't have a big connection with anyone nor anybody..

Plus that time I like a naive kid, so I show my moodyness so easily without thinking twice..My sickness is always there but I just tell few how my feeling and thought and everything..

I no need care how other think of me cause they also don't know me..I also don't know them..

However now is different..I still not a popular kids but my connection is increased by times..I can't show people my emoness, can't show out how suffer I am through those sentences and word..I only can keep to myself..I can't let people worried me..I am having headache..I don't want show my weakness to other cause they always think I am a strong girl..I must be steady and strong..Is pain, is hard but I must put myself the cold winter protection..I am Phoebe, the ancient greek girl..She a goddess and now I have to stay strong as Phoebe..The modern so called boss of OPMAW~

I post in Dayre about how much I don't want change profile picture cause I know he won't like anymore..If like this, I got think why not your block me..Is pain, I will cry but I hate showing weak so I will still admit my high pride..Why not??

By: Phoebe

Pls..I hope you can talk to me..:(..Please can you be like last time toward to me??=/..I everyday hoping and hoping till I sometimes feel like I cannot breath..I feel like can I end my life or can I sleep for a long long hour so I no need to go back reality.... By :Von San

So now seriously saying..I am not feeling well..Headache??I don't know..I cannot really go sleep..People go work that time, I go sleep..I even accepted the challenge of 100days of happy..I can archive cause I can be happy in few hour then emo for long hour..Anyhow..I must be alright..

I miss you..=/..

When he want that time, she refuse and push a lot of reason..When she notice she want also, he avoid and ignore..

Everything is so wrong..

Write at 27.02.2014 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 501 (I couldn't said much but still..:')

Decided to exchange pose?Nah..If I use open eyes, I sure will give u a tired emo looking..

Trust me..Sleep for less than 1 hour is sux..=(!! 

Tonight must find back my beauty sleep..(HELLO, u still sleep late~~=-=)

Anyhow..Haha I miss my boyfiee so decided to take picture before I continue my nap inside car..*pouts*

Kachingg~~Salary is coming..*feeling happy*...Can continue do my stuff..HAHA~:) TEE HEE~

Ermm..Study..Drama and so much more I need to be accomplish since March is gonna be a busy month wei..=3=..So much thing but so little time for me..NO GIVING UP..I should start doing the hashtag of 100day of happy..Oh well..TODAY GONNA BE FIRST..I shy..I post in blog, you won't mind?:D

Hrmm..I feel like make a special post for Voon Yee..I mean thank you, she always there for me..Always let my craziness gone more worst..And let me cling on her..Seldom my friends let..They afraid I am les..*pouts*..:D

Oh well, I will one day post..I mean I will write in word so is like another black and white document again..Tee Hee

Cause I really appreciate her a lot just like how I freaking appreciate other..

Anyhow..I thinking I need to train my another level..Be alert and awake like the movie "300"..If I not mistaken is like keep the energy and so so on.*feeling k.o very soon*..Headache pain till a level I cannot describe..

Exercise must be keep on continue..*wink wink*~Can't disappointed myself..Especially myself..:) 

Happy Day 1~

Write at 25.02.2014 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 500 (An slightly update what happening?)

Sometimes I really feel myself got a different image.=-=!

1. I can be acting innocent smile and everyone thought I am a very good girl..(WAIT!I AM A GOOD GIRL)..:)
2. I can be like weirdo acting cute..(FAIL ONE)
3. I can be sampat girl that asking "do you want a kiss?" Tee Hee
4. Crazy..Just plainly crazy..The End~~

As usual, if I don't post at Facebook picture, I sure post at blog..Since blog not really famous plusssssss is fun back to see back my picture..Especially those retard but no sense..Hrmm Okok..Back to main topic..:(!

Cinema with papa..:D

The show was okok..Ermm Maybe I feel like the book is much more complete becauseeeeeeeeeee....

I also have no idea..:)!

Thank Jie Jie for the treat..:D!

Feel like want to watch more and more and more movie..Is like entertainment is way too many until ermmm I NEED TO GO STUDY!!:(

Oh well..I love Courage..He so cute..Macam my Bobby..:(

Bobby~Oh~Bobby, please be alright..I can't afford to lose you after losing contact with Bubble..

Jie Jie will always love you ..My dear Bobby..

Oh well..They always said the strangest human is the coolest??ME..*wink wink*!!

I am really born to be weird and strange..*pouts*~

Last pic for last post for today..:D

Well..:(

Haixz..

Love..

Never..

Been..

So..

Easy..

To..

Me..

I cannot think anymore..Can I make myself everyday emo so I can get your attention??Can I have a selfish request toward to you??

Or I thinking how to recover myself using 2month??Since 1 month is over..As Adila always said 3 month feeling theory..@@..

I cannot lost him can de..No matter what..><!!*piff*!!

Write at 21.02.2014 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 499 (Dream??!!What is all these..*pouts*)

*Mata sepet Feeling*..X)

Tee Hee..
Just got a thought must upload a pic everytime wrote a blog so my blog won't be so dull..Tee Hee

Face condition never been good recover..*pouts*

Will make sure love my face and also continue my training..:)

Also my study..*meeps*!

Oh ya..I just hate dream sometimes..I mean it can kill me indirectly somehow..Is like my another mind that telling me something..Something worst or something good..I have no idea..@_@!

So ya got two dream..But the stupid two dream is also got this human inside..:(...Who the human..The human name Jason..*pouts*..I just hate it la..@@~!!

Let me recall the first dream..Is like somehow sweet and weird..OMG..I don't know la..

Von San, your fa hiao level don't until like that kay!:(

Doesn't mean cause you know you gonna lose him so you being stupid and idiot again!!:(..Arghh..:(!!HAIX~

I can't deny the dream is somehow sweet and somehow romantic??I don't even think got the romantic element is there wei..:(

Whatever it is..Is just somehow buuuuu..TT!~

I only know the dream make me feel like "can I continue so I can know the ending?:("

Those dream is horrible making me feel suffer somehow..I can't do anything to save it anyway..

Cause sometimes I rather living in the happy dream..A dream I prefer..

Write at....by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 498 (Should I or Shouldn't I??)

Happy Valentines Day Human Being..:D

Dedicated from me and Miss Ho~:D

Always go and kacau her at work..Well..I bored mah..Plus the time I find is usually clash to Crystal...Bububu~~:3

Oh well..Valentines Day..*meep*..:D

Also Cap Goh Mei's Day..Haha..Such a happy day..*SUPPOSED BE THE HAPPY DAY*

Actually there got a video..Damn freaking funny..Haha..I posted in FB..Hope people will give more like..So I can convince Voon Yee to video with me another time..*should be la~~*..Wakakaka~~

Oh ya..I thinking to tell it out today..I mean after the incident..I really feel like THANK GOD who passing me an angel to take care me and so many thing..><!!OMG..Is damn scary and thank GOD I can settle within my level..*calming myself*

Need to be more careful I am serious more careful cause I can't take any risk to do crazy stuff..I still want to have my own fun and steady adventures waiting for me..LIKE SO SERIOUS!!><

Hrmm..What next??!! 

I don't know..Wait la..I actually I know..STUDY..RETAKE!!DAMMNIT!:(

PIFF~:( 

With the peeps..:)

I miss them freaking much..

The End For Now..

PS:I miss you too..Heart freaking pain..I don't want this feeling to be existed anymore..

Write at 14.02.2014 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 497 (Time to face reality wei!!*pouts*)

Even the reality is such a cruel stuff but well..I will still have to face it eventually..*Pouts*..

Thinking positive so at least I must overcome my so called new obstacle

I thought when I said break up mean break up and why you still forcing me to love you another few more month..WHY!!:(

Ok..Since I got one month to face you, so yes I will make sure I love you a lot, need you a lot as well you love me too..Tee Hee..!!

Who the "you"..I will show it in future if I remember to draw..XD!!Wakakaka!

*I got a big nose, imperfect teeth*

Imperfect make me feel unique and weird..*yippie*!..Another way to comfort myself.

Ok so ya..Retaking subject...ARGH!!:(..Haixz..T_T!!

Need to buy revision book..=_=!

Need to start and facing it every sec, every min and ya every hour and thank since I am so freaking free..SO YA MATI FOCUS THESE TWO SUBJECT..Might still finding job to do since I know my craziness of study not everyday!!Tralaalala~!! 

Hrmmm..I think sometimes I can be so creepy just listening voice chat..*bluekxz*...

Tomorrow another day with my leng lui~..I must know how to wake up myself man!!:(

Write at 11.02.2014 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 496 (I wish I could~~)

Selfie combination during CNY..X)

Hahaha..Currently no need take picture since I got lot more picture to slowly post..:3

Btw, I been addicted to this soft song from the movie ARRIETTY(STUDIO GHIBLI)!!

The song giving me the oriental yet classical feeling..:)

Opss..By the way I think certain habits I got here is ermmmm..I actually love phone call..I mean I can really phone call my friend for 1 hour if I am not doing anything..Except watching drama, movie or really doing stuff so ya phone call for me is actually quite normal thing..

Also depend my phone got credit or not..If no then no need think of phone call lo..Tee Hee..

Hrmm..I think is it sometimes I will pause my life awhile and think of lot of stuff..
Ermm..One of the stuff is my current friendship..I been questioning myself..Am I taking Voon Yee like a replacement??..After awhile..I think and confirm is no..=)
What I meant here is :-

1. Yes I don't admit I treat Voon Yee nice but actually from the beginning of last year I treat a lot people nice mah..Can't you all feel it..T_T!
2. I still love a lot of my friends..Creating memory with every each is super duper important to me..X3..Big example "TMR I GONNA LUNCH WITH MY BABE"..:3~
3. I still love my Aisyah in the lenglui gang(Adila named it..They all leng lui je..I not leng lui)..So Aisyah "do you want to be my boyfiee?"..She said she always mine for now..:3~!
4. And if people asking why I seem going out with them is like mostly cause we only out few hour not whole day..Maybe will plan for whole day like that but need time..Since I can't really out..:D!
5. Ok yala..I do phone call with Voon Yee yesterday 1 hour..HELLO..I call quite a lot people don't know how many times, to this don't know how many times..Like I said, I got credit, I got mood I call..:D!!^^
6. That all..When I think of it I type la..I treat mostly everyone equally..Everyone is important to me..:P

And yes I really feel you avoid me wei..So I think we just let everything cool down then will you find me back like last time..Please say will cause I am tired of thinking of negative stuff..I have to do a lot of thing to make myself happy..I just can keep recall how nice you are to me since A to Z..Thank..

Oh ya..Need to keep on commitment with my exercise..I not sure it is really work but well..I not a type of exercise girl and doing the 30min++ of simple aerobic dance hope it help..I really want to cut some of my fats..*pouts*..I want wear pretty shirt, dress and skirt..Really want..And COSPLAY TOO!!><

Write at 08.02.2014 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 495 (Sometimes is like a dream~)

"Dream as if you will live forever.Live as if you will die Today"

Nice quotes..:)..Haha..Took this pic on Voon Yee's bed when she was busy picking what shirt to wear meanwhile I am tired for sleeping the 4 hour nap..=_=..Trust me, insomnia is torturing..I end up have to on Studio Ghibli's musicbox song that around 50++min to make me go sleep..=/

The feeling of crying is there but it can't so it sux..:(

Oh well..I let Voon Yee know..Ermm..How to said..I don't really like to lies my friend..Or maybe I too follow my policy so ya usually certain friends, I don't really lies but I do hide cause I don't want too many people to know about stuff that related to me..Sometimes it give me big trouble and also them..:(..Me don't like big troubles..Headaches..:(

Plus when I can feel something, I really feel unright, I tend to become super emo..HAIXZ~

Luckily I think Voon Yee can tolerate my craziness..Haha..Also Aisyah..Most funny is when Adila keep repeating during that day..I was so INNOCENT..How could you all keep bully me when I did nothing wrong??>< Tee Hee..:D

Ermm..Don't know since when I do always go out with those bunch..Maybe cause we all are crazy...*WAITAMIN*..I think only I am crazy one..Haha..It like once a week or once a two week, I sure go out with them for a lunch or breakfast..Maybe that few hour is better than nothing..LOL!

Today gossip..Wait..Is more like update a lot of stuff to Gwen!!~~

Due she always/seldom can come out like us..ALSO SELDOM ON FB..=_=..Haha

She is Voon Yee's beloved..:3~!

Aren't that both are so sweet..Haha..Is always nice that every stage you got someone that you feel important..

For me is Aisyah..Currently..HAHA!!I have to change..I must let go of Aisyah..T..T!!

Oh well..Today unexpected visit from Jia Qian, Jacklyn, Alvin and Daven..YAY!..Haha..Is so unexpected..Still having fun few hours with them..Tee Hee!!:D

Most funny part is when we all was sending wechat voice to Adila and Adila only can recognize two people that is Jacklyn and Jia Qian..

She can't recall Daven and Alvin..LOL!!Sad die Daven..@~@!

What I should post more for today??I also not sure..Should be that all..Was actually hoping that today I should feel much more better.

Am I a weirdo??I will never try to bring problem to a place where I can feel fun..Haixz..Tonight I must sleep more than 5 hour..HAHA!~

Me with COCONUT ICE-CREAM MILKSHAKE..:D

Damn freaking full..HAHA!!

Thank my dear boyfiee(Aisyah) treating me this yummy drink..HEHE!!

Another nice day have past..Time to have a proper rest..

Eventually I think I miss this particular human being~My Sunway Boss..Tee Hee~

Write at 07.02.2014 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 49(heart) ( The feeling to post stuff is back)~

Am I look so amazingly cool??I mean ya cool..CNY DAY 3 took..Hahaa..Feel like change profile pic to this one but is ok la..Policy change once a month..LOL!

Know what??

What?

I can post and post a lot of post using a lot of different picture..Hahaa..

Is like when I got the mood of taking pic, it will be more than I can handle..*meeps*~!

Well went to Pn Wong's house during CNY day 4..Who Pn Wong??..One of my best addmath tuition teacher..Hahaa..The way she teach me make my ADDMATH from FAIL TO PASS AND GET B during SPM..

Not saying proud but a lazy fella like me can get a average result make me go weeee~~~Haha..Thank to that time Zhen Jian and Sook May intro to me..

And also get to know this few bandar sunway human being..:)!!

Anyhow I really feel awkward but still alright..All nice people hang out together will eventually become awesome..=)

Sigh..I saw Adila post about result 10th of Feb and I was like =_=..Save me man!!Those result is killing me indirectly..:(~!

I did told my papa my result is really not good..I mean I don't know la..:(..I not smart but I got a selfish desire now..Pass everything..PLS PASS..And get a super good result for my ACCOUNT!><!! *bang wall*

So February event..Hrmm..I not sure what event got yet..Ermmm mostly I still want to go check out government braces for price..YES...I don't know why I want to go make braces but a word is I love braces..HAHA~~!!Voon Yee, sorry for trouble you about this case..><..*paiseh paiseh*~! For a moment I love VOON YEE A LOT hahaa..I always trouble with her my stuff..As usual, my selfish stuff..*pouts*~!

Ok..Time to my photos again..Thought of watching drama but well result make me emo more now..Haixz haixz..:(..

Regret is always have but I just don't know how to face it..T_T!!

Yes..I miss you..Can I chat with you..Can I throw away my pride again??:(..I don't know..Haixz..Is like my pride is killing me eventually..I think around 11 something I will talk to you..Maybe??Or maybe not??I not sure..

Doraemon!! Me love Doraemon..Gosh..If I got the last gadget(camera) I can wear a lot of kind of awesome beautiful dress, shirt and even cosplay!! WOO HOO!! 

Ok..I back to reality..Haha!!

Write at 04.02.2014 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 493(Extraordinary feeling on New Year)~!

Me and my beloved papa..Haha..During CNY..Being so attached to my dad so I can go there and here..Wakakaka~~

Trust me..I officially feel sick right now..Haixz..I sometimes asking what I want but at then end..I feel myself a bitch..Seriously??Yes..

I don't know what to said but I think the feeling is got but not so deep..Maybe is I already feel myself like so big girl liao~~Hrmmm

Kla..I need rest..~~I mean edit pic..HAHA~~!!

Write at 03.02.2014 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 492 (HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR)~

Aisyah and Phoebe..The two crazy retarder girls you cannot miss out..:3

Actually still got more crazy fella..Haha

OK!!HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR 2014~XD

There is so much stuff I need to do..

Hehe!~

Actually wanted to post one of today pic but I just too tired and my face is so freaking round..:(..*not a good feeling*

How to keep lose fats during CNY?!!Is like all the good yummy delicious food is looking me and asking me "want eat me?"..with the innocent look..HAHA!~
So ya will continue my routines after my day with CNY~

Sigh..Now really got too much of CNY PIC..And sorry I need to edit..:(..My nose got pimples...Trust me is sux..:(..And thank to myself that I actually got the habits to remove those pimples only~~PIMPLES ONLY..Usually I won't edit my face to sharp or "v" shape..HAHA~~I will keep on cut down my fat..It might take forever but well..I must do it anyhow..:D~~!!

I will try my best upload more and more pic I took..Using DSLR..THANK PAPA~:3 

Tee Hee~!! 

Since I really need to edit quite a lot of pic..+ FILTER TOO~!! Hehe

Oh ya..Did I mention about the comfortable zone??Nah..Already reach the level??I don't know..I getting confused and confused..I wonder is it because my principle that save me from simply thinking nonsense or this is the very first time I drop to that kind of situation..

Well~~Can't think much..ANYHOW HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEOPLE..:)

Write at 03.02.2014 by -VoN S@N-..

PS:Will update very soon..ME PROMISE..TEE HEE~XD