Chapter 374(I must continue stay strong..!!)

O.oo
I gonna type out what today stuff..Rawww~~Be ready~~:)

So the most important stuff I online more than 8hours..Whoah..Seriously worst..Haha..=D
Ook..
Actually morning my mood wasn't so good..
I feel something is fake..=/
I feel everything is damn fake..
You really make me feel like a two-faced-person..
Luckily Hua Hau find me chat and I finally tell him that thing..I really feel sad about it..
I really feel my life is worst..=/
But when I talk to Hua Hau and Yi Hui..Then I find a way to make me stop thinking that is make myself busy..Totally busy..
Cause I know by doing that I won't feel anything..D=

And then finally my mood is better after hearing a lot of happy stuff from Hua Hau and Yi Hui..:)
Thx..
And then Shuen Bond Gor Gor find me chat..And thank to him..My mood ok a lot..
Not to forget mention that sot sot Yi Han..Haha...He really treat me like a heng dai but I don't really want tell my problem to him cause he still in his happy mood..:)
I really don't want to say bad about him but I really hate it..=/
I sometimes wish if I not exist in his life then everything will be ok..But happen is already happen..
Haixx

So now I want to state two thing..

• PLEASE!!Stop make my darling feel stressed..She no need to explain anything to who okay!!
• I hope your problem faster solve so you can really smile from your heart..

Please please let me stop think about her..
Sorry..
I don't know this is how u treat friend..
Ook..I should be alright very fast..
Remember I must stay strong..

My problem I don't want people to worry..D=
Cause I feel my problem is really a small matter to compare with it..
But when I really feel tired..I really hope my friends can support me....

GOD,Please bless Adila will alright..I can't bear look her so sad..D=

Can't wait for tomorrow..:)
Later must rush up my hw too..Hehe~~XD

Write at 30.04.11 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 373(I know I can do it..=D)

Cool down..:)..I know I can handle it properly...Meepss~~:D
Compare now and last time..I feel I really keep myself so so busy so I can stop thinking all the negative stuff..
Last time I will stay alone and simply think but now I really keep myself busy doing a lot of stuff..
Example in class..Serious..I really really feel lonely in class that why when I talking to Yi Hui I also feel sometimes I hurt her..D=

(Y)..I really admit my problem won't so many as my friends but I really feel tired..=/
I tired acting infront of it..
But I should get used of it..
I must be strong..
But is good to keep myself busy will bunch of homework and so so on..Tee Hee..=3
Ok..VON SAN, you can..I know..

Ya..I give up..=/
Finally I give up..
Just let go...
I am evil, I am bad..I cannot give the second chances cause is too late..=/

Ok..Later I need to keep myself busy again..=D
Yi Hui, please come to school tomorrow..I can't stand lonely..I will freak out..D=!!

Write at 28.04.2011 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 372(Thx..I acting again)

I so weird..Acting weird..But I really want to be friend with you..Oh well..Forget it..!!

I like this pic..^^~~

To a special girl..=D
To Darling..
I know you don't like her but I am serious what I saying right now..
Although I don't know her past or what..
But I can feel she treat me very friendly..
She won't treat me too friendly or too stranger which give me a comfortable feeling..
I not sure..I can't tell what but I know that she is really caring for me..
She never really ask for a goodies from me which make me happy..:)
I weird right..Haha


Kla..Back to school..^^
Today during ekonomi period was weird weird..Haha..Adila sitting beside me and the she suddenly put her head onto my shoulder..O.oo~~
And I don't know why I also let her do that to me and I don't care just keep quiet and looking at the ekonomi paper that En Kamal gave..XD~!!
Then then suddenly I listen don't know who saying "look at them..."
Then I and Adila look up and see classmates pointing me like so sweet..Haha..
I not sure but is funny..XD!!
Then Adila continue put her head on my shoulder and then I also quietly look at her..
Haha..Sweet moment with my bao bei..:)
Seldom have de O.oo

Ya..I will be strong..=/

Write at 27.04.2011 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 371(Stay happy kay!!)

I am sorry..I really don't want to say any bad word or stuff about you..Since I promise myself..
So sorry about what I wrote just now..
Only blog make me feel better..Huhu~~
And I think you are not saying me right..
Eeee~~~I should throw my sadness awayyy..:D
Okkk..
I should biasa people saying me bad..Rightt...
I can go through ittt..I know I can..GAMBATEH..

Rawww..
Today I should talk about my school stuff right..^_^

So today school activity is do the tanah egg stuff right??:D!!
Haha..
So only student that bring egg only can come along to playy~~Rawwss~
So Pn Koh lead us to RUMAH HIJAU and start our activity..
Pn Koh tell us that use tanah liat to balut the egg but since no tanah liat so exchange with tanah merah..^^After Pn Koh finish explain then is we students do but we tell Sing Peng to do first then only we do..

But once Sing Peng do then we follow her go balut our egg~~XD
After balut do what..
Go put into fire and let it cook??Haha..
I feel like explain until so complicated..><..
Is ok..Photo will come up later..Tee Hee..

But Pn Koh say our fire is not so big so need wait hour hour to get our egg ready..XD~~
After finish our so called "BSSM Activity" then we should go back class~~XD
First we learn is Ekonomi..Haha..Ekonomi period so funn~~:D
Learning Form 4 stuff and so so on..
AND TEACHER GIVE ME A STAR for fast fast doing my work~~Rawww..♥♥♥

Then recess and is Scienceee~~Hehe
Science doing Form 4 objective..
Haha..Few chapter that I don't know so straight ask answer from AZ,Hui Yen,Pei Li and Hua Hau..XD!!
Lol..Although just 11 student after plus 5SK1,5SK2 and 5Sk3 but is really fun and I really enjoyy!!!
Later then BM period was normal..
Teacher telling storryyy then then getting tireddd so sleep..:D
Hehe..No choice la..Who tell teacher keep telling the interlok story make me boring de..><..
Sleep sleep then I heard Ying and Yen they all talking so wake up and Hua Hau also talking..
Lol..I think that all is for my Saturday School dayy..=)

Pn Koh doing demo to us how to do the Tanah Egg..^^

Eggg...^^

Make it like a boom egg??Full with Tanah Merahh~!!!

Yen showing Ying the eggg..:D!!

Startingg..=D

I kinda love the flame..Haha~~

Listening to Pn Koh explaining how to do..:D

Now is student doing..Haha..^^~~

Everyone around look at uss..^^!!

Egg in tanah..Tanah in fire..O.O!!

I like a stupid girl playing it..:D!!

Sepet eye of me..Lol!!~!!

Rock egg!!Haha..

Fresh boiled egg..X3!!

Ops..Failed boil egg..Haha!!

Went back to our class and take pic with my babe(Ying)..Haha..:D!!

My dearr(Wen Tyng)..^^!!

Babe and Mommy(Yen)..This is how people camwhore at class..^^!!

I <3 this pic..^^!!

Me and Babe again..Haha!!

She cute rightt!!

I love this pic but Alfie seem spoil it..Buu!!XD!!

Ook..So guess all this pic is enough to attract my blog..Lol!!

Write at 23.04.2011 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 370(Thankxzz..)

Today story..Hrmm..Err..Class story..Haha..Thank to Wani and Adila who give me such a brave so I can go do my bm oral although I know I screw it but is ok..Haha..
Not to forget thank to Yi Hui..:3..I really feel so nervous today when doing the oral..Just tell me how much I hate oral..Lol..
No la..I like it but maybe too shy or too paiseh..@.@
Okok..

Ok..I know today I feel abit lonely but I should be sudah biasa right..D=
I also not sure but I will be okay de..My mind must make myself relax..Meepss..
Stop thinking negative..Okayyy..
I <3 my bloggie..Hehe..Be happy...
Gonna do thing to make me busy so I won't simply think..Hehe..

Write at 22.04.11 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 369(Smile all the way~~)

Booo..~~I need to gambateh..Ok..I lazy to post thing but I like this pic cause is taken by me and edit by me..Tee Hee.
Ciaozzz..=)

Write at 21.04.11 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 368(Who can really understand??=/)

I sudah biasa with it..

I did tell I not like last time so strong..
Everyday go school is like keep telling myself be happy..
However everyday is not what I wish..
Only bloggie is the one who can make me feel lot better..Thank..
I must biasa people ejek me..I must..
I always feel so weird when people keep telling me I at school is how fun with everyone or blah blah but how can they know is actually I feel damn sad..=/
I don't feel secured at all..
In class I wish I can bring my phone go..
I wish I can everyday can listening to music so I no need to listen people simply say about me..
Or talk crap about me which is damn stupid..=.=

Haha..(Lee.C.Y)
Why can't he treat me same and stop ejek me but is impossible right..
I should keep reading my post..
I should feel ok..><..
Really must..
Stop thinking negative..
I should okay with it..
He want to say me what then say bah..
I must keep wearing that "happy mask"..><..

Today really thank to PEI LI..:D
Keep waking me up at account..
Dozing at account is not good..Still blurrr..=/
Later need to do some homework..Hehe..
Before must go pasar..XD
Nagging my daddyyyyy~~<3

Maybe I should just be more patience with it..
I really don't want to show my stupidness..
Don't let people worried..Okay..
Be brave..
Keep myself busy..
I can go through it..
GAMBATEH..:D

Write at 20.04.11 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 367(I know I can go through it..XD)

These day was totally moody over one stuff..
Feel so stupid..=/
Why I need so gan chiong..
Why I need to so care about it..
Haixx..
I need to get over it..
I say what I feel..
Is wrong also nevermind..
I am bad for saying you..
I don't think my sorry can be acceptable..
Oh well..
I will be okay de..

Thank for people who willing be my ear..
Bloggie..I love u a lot..Haha..
I am serious after that tomorrow I will stop saying bad about her de..
Stop de..I too over..
So to make me stop doing so..I got my plan..Haha..
Wink..

And next problem is misunderstanding stuff..Piff....
Must stop people think..Haha
Not him or him or who..
I love my blog..Haha..
My blog love me too..
My blog is the only one can make me feel lot better..^^

My bread face??Haha..I feel so weird in this pic..LOL..XD

Need stay strong O.oo..GAMBATEH TAN VON SAN!!!

Write at 19.04.2011 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 366(I sot de..:D)

Today have a weird mood to school..My mood was okay then go weird..Sit alone and ignore other people..
Stupid Chee Yeow go ejek me but that time I was ok...
Then recess...
Recess also normal lu..
Nothing really happen..Haha..Just keep discussing about my holiday event..(PS:My school exam haven't start yet le..XD)
After that listen to account's folio projek stuff..Huhu~~
Maybe was dozing in the class so when wake up a bit blurr and no mood..XD
Mana tahu that Chee Yeow go make me MD..Ish ish..He wrong timing pulak..
Go back to class was ok de but he keep keep ejek so I end up angry and scold him and a bit tearing..Haha..
My mood wasn't so good..=/

After addmath was okay a bit then during sejarah was sleeping..After wake up don't know why my mood better a lot..Weee~~~~~~XD
Awww~~Haha..Really feel better a lot..<3<3<3~~

Then now I a bit pissed off..><..
Haixx..
I say true la..
Is this how you treat friend..I wonder..><..
I don't know..But if me I will keep care about my friendship cause I appreciate they all a lot..
I don't know why you keep want a "jie"..=.=..Sienxzz dao...
Suan le...She is strong not like me..Haha..
Just let me say in here bah..^^
My blog my control..:D
Bwahahaha..

Awwww~~I should keep staying positive mood..Meepss~~
No give up..
Later night need to do Ying's stuff..Haha
Ter-ignore..Paisehh~~~Kakakaka..
I appreciate you alll~~~~~~~~~~~<3<3<3~~

Hehe..Serious..I love my friends..
So I don't want couple or what..Haha..
Sorry for my selfishness..
>..<..
Byeee~~I need rush homework..Haha

Write at 18.04.2010 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 365(Is over..:D)

Finally kawat thing over..So happy..:D..Haha..Can go back to class and catch up my study..Tee Hee~~>w<
Today go back to class study feel like the first day in class..LOL~~Damn blurrr~~
Thank all teacher that are so caring..Meeepp..
Tell them how much I love them sometimess..Tee Hee..

Today is my babe's birthday!!><
Babe Kit Ying..Haha..
Although sometimes her attitude I don't like but is ok..:D..
Cause I still love her..Haha..Like how I love May..Tee Hee
Ookay..So later 11.55 I gonna post her happy birthday..><..Haha..
I am deadd~~:D
Thank tomorrow no school..
Guess she won't angry me till how bahh..XD
She will de..I thinkk..^_^

Not really in a good mood..><..
Something not really happy stuff happen but I think it will ok bah..:D..
Ciaoxx..Want buy rice cracker and do my homework..Huhu~~:D
Gambateh O.oo..

Write at 15.04.2011 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 364(Weird day for me..:D)

I don't care..
I don't care..
I don't care how tired I am..I want to post!!!Arghh..@.@

So today is special and a day I like..Haha..Don't know why..Haha..
So let the story start after school over..Which is the period time I need to go stay back...
Then my ex-darling(Yi Hui) with Sook Ying and Me went to MCD makan..Haha..
While ordering and waiting for Wen Tyng and Hua Hau something stupid happen at the cashier of MCD..

Err..The story is like the cashier people who can't listen what I ordering and say I and Yi Hui tak faham..Rawss..
Damn MD the cashier people of MCD...
Tell the story to Wen Tyng,Hua Hau and Sook Ying..All laugh..XD!!
Haha..Then I really MD keep on pouring the black pepper as it like I never eat before until Hua Hau say I open 10 pack jor then I say where got until I go count it really 10..:P!!
After that Wen Tyng and Hua Hau asked us want to go Subang Parade..

And we go...We??Me,Yi Hui and Sook Ying..^.^
We went to Subang Parade and enjoy really much..
Thank Hua Hau treat us COOLBLOG..Thxxx..:D

So next station is PN CHUAH's HOUSE..Huhu~~
First time came to Pn Chuah's house..Tee Hee..
Kla..
I really lazy to type..Haha..Happy stuff is like that de la..:D

Write at 08.04.2011 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 363(Arghh..Grrr..I so so useless..D=)

Mood complicated..I also not sure but let make it easy..I want to say it out..So I know my mistake..D=

I not a girl who will tell my feeling out..Serious..I mean I won't tell at the time when is happen..I will wait after few day only tell..>.<
Reserved than reserved bah..D=
I know I noob..Meepsss...
Haha..I am so stupid..I don't know why I will so sensitive to Yi Hui's word..
But the truth is..I can't be sad when everyone is looking..Right??
I should be more positive thinking..Is ok for who want to say me..Cause I admit I not pro..AND I am noob but I will TRY MY BEST TO LEARN UNTIL I PRO..

Today I also got say something funny but forget it..
Just by this training..I have to strengthen up my patience and my ability to social up with human..Tee Hee..

I really thank to people that make me happy..Although they are not my gang or what..But I feel happy to talk or play with you all..

Mon that is Syed Hariz,Hari Haran and Aaron..Not so close with them but they are actually nice and fun..Haha..

And today with Pei Li's they all the gang..Although a while but is fun..
At least can make me stop thinking..=/

Then today tuition..I so blurr and so loud again..T.T
I still no mood now..Sigh..D=
@@~~!!
I thought my F5 life is stay house be pig instead go out play or activity but is not..Is more activity compared to last yearrr~~D=
I must go through..Haha..
GAMBATEHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~I know I can do iiiiiiiiiiitttttttttttttt~~!!!
Muackxx..Bloggie..Thank a lot..You really make me smile...^^

Now I shouldn't sad I am reserved or not..:P..
Plus I want to train myself also..Haha..I <3 all my friend who so support me and talk to me or what la..Thankkkkkkkk wei..Muackxxx..:D
I need you all a lotttt..Sometimes..I don't mind you all support,not support or what..Haha..As long can make me go find a word "FUN" through the day..I will happyyyy..^^
Thankkkiuuu~~~~~~~~

Write at 05.04.2011 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 362(Is too late..)

Finally yesterday say the truth to him..
But I know once I say it..I will totally want him go to other girl..No more me jor..Haha..
Am I smart..Lol..Let me shoik sendiri kay..:)

Plus is really too late to say sorry to me..Really..XD
I accept but but but..I still with my own thinking..Haha..:D
Thank a lot YI HAN..He really help me a lot..He the one who give me such a big courage..He my good heng dai..><..
Wish his still alright..And his whole family too..*meeps*~~!!

Haha...
Fourth day not opening FACEBOOK..Is so so hard..Haha..
Finally I feel the load I carrying is gone..Lol~~~=X
Am I funny??@~@
Lol..I know I am..Kayy..
I shouldn't cry for it anymore..I am stupid girl..
Go deactivated FB cause don't want go view his profile..Lol
Kla kla..Still got 3 day I will active back..Weeeee..>w<
Arghh..I got so many homework that I haven't siap yet..How how how??
Go do??
Lazyyyyyyyyyy~~~:P

Haha...My mood is better a lotttt..
Thank to my bloggie a lot..I love you the most..My blogg..U are the one who take away my stresss..Weeee~~~X3

Write at 03.04.2011 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 361(Don't argue when you never think about other person's feeling..)

Although now on9 is abit stupid..=/
But is better than don't have..Right??
I mean I don't really want to on fb..Because I don't want??(Y)
Today is my 2nd time I cry for him after break..Lol..I so stupid..
I don't know why..
Maybe to me when we are not that kind of relationship..I feel very happy..Happy to chat like a friend..:P
Can human ask me why I so dare to type out??Lol
Cause this is my blog..So don't judge it and read it..Muahahaa..XD

Haha...I am a selfish girl..
=P
Kla..I am serious what I saying now..I don't want couple..
Scare of it..(Y)..I am..Haha
And I am serious..:D

TO HIM

I won't want to couple back..
Unless really got thing change my mind..OR not I will be determined what I am typing now..=)
Then then..*try to think*..Haha..Still I wish you can be happy, find your happiness..Weee~~
And I still want friend with you..Haha..XD
I just just don't want to couple for now..
Plus I still can't tell you the real reason why I the one who cut this relationship cause I know you won't believe what I say or maybe you might think I made up all the story..So suan le..:D
All I now is be your friend..That all..^^
I type finish..U think I am selfish??I admit I am...*meeps*
I just very sorry for everything..D:
I am sorry for now I breaking your heart once again..
I don't want you to cry or sad for me jor..I really don't want..

I must control myself not to open my facebook..Weeee~~~~<3<3<3~~
Gambateh..>o<!--!!! Rawssss..~~~ I must be more okay..Be strong..Be more happy..Be more cheerful..*wink*
Stay strong..XD

TO ADILA
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BAO BEI..XDDDDDDDDD..RAWSS...

ZAT..
I really like you as a friend now..As a buddy now..Sorry..D=

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..Muackxzzz..

Write at 02.04.2011 by -VoN S@N-

Chapter 360(Please..I am enough of misunderstanding stuff..D=!!)

I know I always give my friends simply think but I am really ok..Serious..D=
I just need so time..
That why I hate FB so suddenly...
Now I can rest also on my blog..Dear blog, I feel hurt and sad so suddenly..
I don't want him to sad for me already..ENOUGH!!
I wish him happy happy..That all..
Is that very hard??D=
I need some rest..I have to act strong..OKAY!!!~~:X

Gah..I think you given to paper throw away or what la..
D=
Fine la..That letter I really straightforward already..
I really tired..Tired of everything..
If human ask me couple or something..I will only say "No, don't think too much.."
That all..>
Hate hate hate hate!!
Sorry FB..I will active once I am okay with myself..D=
Maybe one week...(Y)
So now I can fully focus my picture as well my homework..Ciaoxzzz..:D
I hate myself right now..D=
*Mind full of NEGATIVE STUFF*..T.T

Write at 01.04.2011 by -VoN S@N-